What would you like your hair to look like? I wonder what "amazing hair" would be. ^^
I LITERALLY HAVE NO IDEA HAHA I THINK I'M JUST TRYING TO FIND EXCUSES AS TO WHY I'M NOT TOTALLY HAPPY WITH MYSELF AND HAIR IS AN EASY TARGET.
SO TONIGHT I'VE BEEN TO OUR OFFICE CHRISTMAS PARTY. ALL THINGS CONSIDERED IT WENT REALLY WELL. I THINK I SOCIALISED WELL I MADE CONVERSATIONS WITH PEOPLE. I ONLY HAD ONE AWKWARD MOMENT WHEN I WENT TO THE TOILET AND THERE WERE SOME OF THE MORE POPULAR PRETTY GIRLS DOING THEIR MAKE-UP AT THE SINK AND I DIDN'T WANT TO INTERACT WITH THEM SO I JUST WAITED UNTIL THEY LEFT.
I ALSO EAT AND DRANK A LOT. PROBABLY THE MOST I'VE EVER DRANK FOR A LONG TIME ABOUT 4 GLASSES OF WINE AND A COCKTAIL AND I FEEL SURPRISINGLY GOOD. NORMALLY AFTER 3 GLASSES OF WINE I'M ABOUT TO THROW UP BUT THIS TIME I HELD IT WELL AND COULD POSSIBLY HAVE DRUNK SOME MORE. I'M GLAD I LEFT WHEN I DID AS I'M SURE THINGS WERE GOING TO GET A BIT CRAZY LATER. BUT I WAS ALMOST IN THE MOOD TO DANCE TROUBLE IS WE WERE IN A TRENDY BAR, BUT I DID JOIN IN WITH PEOPLE AND SHOWED OFF MY AMAZING DANCE SKILLS TO TRAGEDY BY STEPS, I STILL REMEMBER THE MOVES...
HOPEFULLY I GAVE A GOOD IMPRESSION TO MY COLLEAGUES AND THEY THINK I'M A BIT LESS AWKWARD NOW.
Well even though it's lonely my intented nothingness is kind of relaxing being away from people, the noise, the work,... ^^
I hope you can get some of it done and may you reach your main goal!
It's always ok to take some time out!
My issue is I have more of those days than busy ones :/
I'm almost tempted to do something crazy and join a gym I feel like it's something I should have a go at once in my life and I have a Birthday soon so I might ask for some money towards it. Not to mention I have apparently gone into the overweight side of healthy...
I've been dedicated enough to go to a pilates class over week for a while so I feel this is the next step. Might get me out of the house a bit too.
Well. It's an issue for me too. Except for work I rarely go out or do anything.
It might be a good idea to join a gym if you find the energy to keep going. I think that to feel good in one's body helps to feel good in the head. So I thought about going to one too but never found the courage. I hope you find it and get to like it. ^^
1. Do some exercise! I've always been skinny naturally but I've never been healthy. I think the reason I weight as little as I do is because I have no muscle, which is a problem as I have no strength/stamina. The weight I have goes to my stomach and face. Unfortunately as I have a big head anyway, got a bit of a bit of a bobble headed thing going on. I think it would make a look older as well with a less chubby face. I would love a flat stomach and some cheekbones haha. I think my goals are tone up, gain muscle and become more flexible. I plan on doing lifts, sit ups, the kind of things I don't need to leave the house for :-) I am limited by space and lack of money so I'll improvise with household objects. Running and such is not possible as my left leg is messed up. I do plan on doing research into the best ways to do this. Around 10 years ago I started doing arm lifts (with a textbook!) and about 40 sit ups a day, it was great I was able to touch my toes for the first time. So if I had the motivation back then I can do it again now! 2. Become more active online. Because if I can't be confident on the internet. I have no hope doing it irl. 3. Job. But I don't really want to talk about that. 4. Start playing the keyboard again. Starting with relearning how to read music. 5. Add more things to this list. I've run out of steam right now.
ugh so my work contract is up at the end of March and they announced some new jobs coming up so once again I've had to apply to stay. There are about 12 of us on contracts and 7 jobs. I'm not sure what my chances are I'm probably near the bottom in terms of performance. I've sent in my application last night so I'll wait and see. I can just feel my anxiety rising. I hope I'll get an interview but then I don't want the stress of it.
oh and I had a birthday last weekend I feel like I'll never be able to tell people my age without someone laughing at me...