Post by Rob "Triangle" on Oct 21, 2014 18:47:03 GMT -5
I've known this person for... I think since late-June, or July. Every single time I talk to her, I think back on what I've said, and it always looks like I sound educationally subnormal. It's painful, and to me, it's a bit... cringey, hah.
Recently, she's been talking less to me, which I can't really blame her for. I often act stupid to her. But it's weird, every time I talk to her, I always get nervous about what the response will be.
For a month or two, I've been asking about meeting up to hang out. I don't know if she's scared, but I know I am. She hasn't declined any of the mentionings, but she is skeptical. I've even tried to persuade numerous people to go on holiday to [location], so I could go with them, to meet her. My mum (as a family holiday), my dad (as just me and him), a co-worker, an ex-co-worker, and my only friend's girlfriend. Nobody accepted. As you can tell, I'm just pathetic.
2 days ago, I think I ruined the relationship, when I finally got over my nerves and anxiety... when I asked her out on a date, because I thought it'd be the only way to meet her (intending to meet her half way between where we live)... she hasn't talked to me since, and I've just been worried. I'm confused though, because she hasn't deleted and/or blocked me, so I'm just at a dead end. I, of course, don't ever want to lose her as a friend, or for either of us, to stop talking. I feel like dying.