Post by ritter123 on Dec 15, 2015 1:08:52 GMT -5
Hello my name is Pascal and I am from Austria.
I am currently a foreign exchange student in the United States, so I am sorry for my bad English.
But anyways, my stay in here in South Dakota started in August. I cannot really enjoy my stay. My town is quit small and many people don´t get along with each otherwell. I don´t have any host brothers or sisters.
Back in Austria I had a lot of friends and I felt very comfortable when I was with them, but when a I was faced with new situations with people I don´t know or in a big group my slef-confident shrinked. I saw the exchange year as an opportunity to improve my behavior and feel happy again. But I kind of missed this opportunity. I am even more kept into myself than I was in Austria. This may happend because my first host family wasn´t really interrested in me and this gave a confirmation to my mind that I should´t open my personality.
But through these month I already learned that nobody but me is responsible for the situation and the feelings that I have. I know that I have to go to people, talk to them and show them that I have a different personality then I showed them in the first time of my stay. I also know that even a few people think that I am that weird foreign who doesn´t talk a lot I can still change it. I know all that stuff but I don´t really know how to change it. How do I go to people and don´t care what they might think of me? How do I be able to speak in bigger groups with big self-confidence? How do I show people the really me when I don´t know them very well.
I am tired of hide my personality because something in my head still tries to protect me from the humans. This happens probalby because I was bullyied in my childhood. However, this is the past and I live in the present. I want to improve my self-confidence and persuasive my mind that it´s worth to show people myself.
I am thankful to anybody who read this and give me any kind of a hint.
Thank you very much!!!
I am currently a foreign exchange student in the United States, so I am sorry for my bad English.
But anyways, my stay in here in South Dakota started in August. I cannot really enjoy my stay. My town is quit small and many people don´t get along with each otherwell. I don´t have any host brothers or sisters.
Back in Austria I had a lot of friends and I felt very comfortable when I was with them, but when a I was faced with new situations with people I don´t know or in a big group my slef-confident shrinked. I saw the exchange year as an opportunity to improve my behavior and feel happy again. But I kind of missed this opportunity. I am even more kept into myself than I was in Austria. This may happend because my first host family wasn´t really interrested in me and this gave a confirmation to my mind that I should´t open my personality.
But through these month I already learned that nobody but me is responsible for the situation and the feelings that I have. I know that I have to go to people, talk to them and show them that I have a different personality then I showed them in the first time of my stay. I also know that even a few people think that I am that weird foreign who doesn´t talk a lot I can still change it. I know all that stuff but I don´t really know how to change it. How do I go to people and don´t care what they might think of me? How do I be able to speak in bigger groups with big self-confidence? How do I show people the really me when I don´t know them very well.
I am tired of hide my personality because something in my head still tries to protect me from the humans. This happens probalby because I was bullyied in my childhood. However, this is the past and I live in the present. I want to improve my self-confidence and persuasive my mind that it´s worth to show people myself.
I am thankful to anybody who read this and give me any kind of a hint.
Thank you very much!!!
