Post by sj on Nov 23, 2016 0:39:45 GMT -5
Wow,
I hope there are people left on his forum since I just found it and joined but looking at the dates of posts, it doesn't look too active. Hopefully I can get to know some of you like myself who were not lucky enough to be born self confident and not afraid.
I go by SJ but that is because I am very embarrassed of my real name, you see when I was born my parents wanted a girl but ended up with me, a boy, but that didn't stop them from giving me a girl name. My actual name given by my parents is Shawna and my middle name is Geary. So you can see from the start what a real confidence builder that was. People make fun of me so I usually just go by SJ or for my very few close friends, they like to call me Shawney. I needless to say am very self conscious of my name. Then, if that was not bad enough, I was abused sexually by my father for many years. This also took a toll on me being a boy. Now I am a grown man with many insecurities, anxieties, trust issues, and fears; all of which I know shy people experience at one time or another.
The frustrating thing for me is that I am not sure if I was born with a predisposition for a shy temperment or whether all the crap that I described briefly above was the catalyst in making me a painfully shy individual and whether this can eventually be overcome or whether it will linger (for what ever extent or degree) for the rest of my life.
Thats my story in a nutshell. If anything if feels good to finally tell part of my shy story.
SJ
I hope there are people left on his forum since I just found it and joined but looking at the dates of posts, it doesn't look too active. Hopefully I can get to know some of you like myself who were not lucky enough to be born self confident and not afraid.
I go by SJ but that is because I am very embarrassed of my real name, you see when I was born my parents wanted a girl but ended up with me, a boy, but that didn't stop them from giving me a girl name. My actual name given by my parents is Shawna and my middle name is Geary. So you can see from the start what a real confidence builder that was. People make fun of me so I usually just go by SJ or for my very few close friends, they like to call me Shawney. I needless to say am very self conscious of my name. Then, if that was not bad enough, I was abused sexually by my father for many years. This also took a toll on me being a boy. Now I am a grown man with many insecurities, anxieties, trust issues, and fears; all of which I know shy people experience at one time or another.
The frustrating thing for me is that I am not sure if I was born with a predisposition for a shy temperment or whether all the crap that I described briefly above was the catalyst in making me a painfully shy individual and whether this can eventually be overcome or whether it will linger (for what ever extent or degree) for the rest of my life.
Thats my story in a nutshell. If anything if feels good to finally tell part of my shy story.
SJ
I hope you find a way to heal and come to terms with all your various issues. And I hope being on this forum will help you, even of it's only as a way to vent. 