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Post by Scotty on Jul 8, 2011 19:28:58 GMT -5
...that everyone who signs into SU would actually post some stuff. ;D
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Post by davidesamulson on Jul 9, 2011 1:47:28 GMT -5
I randomly wish that That I could learn to stay feeling happier and more fulfilled for longer periods of time.
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Post by Rose on Jul 9, 2011 14:13:12 GMT -5
I wish that I were exactly like myself now, except a genius with words. So I could take the thoughts I already have, but have places to dump them in the right order without being misunderstood, and have rich conversations with people.
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Post by Sweet Pea on Jul 9, 2011 14:45:20 GMT -5
I wish that I were exactly like myself now, except a genius with words. So I could take the thoughts I already have, but have places to dump them in the right order without being misunderstood, and have rich conversations with people. you're doing just fine here.
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Post by Karen on Jul 21, 2011 8:18:32 GMT -5
... the rental car I'm driving was my car, its soooo much nicer!
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Post by strawberrysweetie on Jul 26, 2011 2:03:12 GMT -5
I think I wish I had someone(s) who I could be 100% myself around them, without feeling judged in any way. And without feeling like I'm some kind of annoyance. I hate when I feel like no one gets my true self...except myself. And I obviously don't like what that is, whatever it is. I hate feeling like I'm holding back in one way or another. Or keeping secrets or something. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it. That's probably impossible, though, isn't it? I'm fairly certain everyone gets on each other's nerves eventually, at some point in time. No matter who it is. Unfortunately, I think this may be my definition of true friendship. Being with someone and caring about someone, enjoying them through and through...mostly at least, and without judgement. Which is probably why I say I don't have friends. Confused yet? Good. Because I am too. Sadness erupts.
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Post by Rose on Jul 26, 2011 16:01:18 GMT -5
I think I wish I had someone(s) who I could be 100% myself around them, without feeling judged in any way. And without feeling like I'm some kind of annoyance. I hate when I feel like no one gets my true self...except myself. And I obviously don't like what that is, whatever it is. I hate feeling like I'm holding back in one way or another. Or keeping secrets or something. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it. That's probably impossible, though, isn't it? I'm fairly certain everyone gets on each other's nerves eventually, at some point in time. No matter who it is. Unfortunately, I think this may be my definition of true friendship. Being with someone and caring about someone, enjoying them through and through...mostly at least, and without judgement. Which is probably why I say I don't have friends. Did something happen to bring this up? I feel exactly like this sometimes...but it's usually after an incident of some kind. Being misunderstood or picked on because my brain works differently than most peoples. I know I put up way too many emotional walls. Besides my BF, I don't know if there's anyone who I feel comfortable being my 100% self around. Though I've come to a kind of realization. I don't think I can even be my full self around anyone until I learn to like my full self (around everyone)...if that makes any sense? Certain people cause me to hate certain parts of myself when I am around those people. So I just shut down around them, and hang around with people who make me feel good about myself (usually family or BF). I think when I truly learn to like my full self in all situations, only then will I feel comfy to open up to a variety of people and make friends. This certainly hasn't happened permanently yet but it's a goal. I don't have any female friends right now, but I know that's partially my own fault for avoiding people so much. ....I randomly wish I had a larger bedroom.
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Post by strawberrysweetie on Jul 27, 2011 13:50:41 GMT -5
Did something happen to bring this up? I feel exactly like this sometimes...but it's usually after an incident of some kind. Being misunderstood or picked on because my brain works differently than most peoples. I know I put up way too many emotional walls. Besides my BF, I don't know if there's anyone who I feel comfortable being my 100% self around. Though I've come to a kind of realization. I don't think I can even be my full self around anyone until I learn to like my full self (around everyone)...if that makes any sense? Certain people cause me to hate certain parts of myself when I am around those people. So I just shut down around them, and hang around with people who make me feel good about myself (usually family or BF). I think when I truly learn to like my full self in all situations, only then will I feel comfy to open up to a variety of people and make friends. This certainly hasn't happened permanently yet but it's a goal. I don't have any female friends right now, but I know that's partially my own fault for avoiding people so much. Well, I don't think any one specific thing happened to make myself feel this way lately. I just generally realized it. I think it's being back home, around family. I feel like parts of myself are hidden. Like....I'm close to the kids in my family, but obviously, they only get one part of me. They mostly get the crazy/loudish/annoying(?) (what of that exists in me anyway) part of me. My parents..I can tell them some things, but definitely not everything (nor would I want to). I can be open about some things, but there are a lot of things I don't talk about....like specifically depressive/anxious issues. I may vaguely refer to them, but not in those clinical terms. They'd think I'm crazy. I'm pretty sure they don't know how chronically sad, lonely and miserable I am. Nor would I want them to know! I feel like a huge disappointment really....whether or not I am to them actually or not, doesn't really matter...it's just how I feel. So, I don't know. While they accept me really, I still don't feel like they know the full extent of what goes on with me. Though I do feel like that's for the best. My siblings...I'm not sure what to say about them. :S lol. I suppose they only get surface issues with me. They possibly know less about me than my parents, though only slightly. I don't really talk on great deep levels with anyone. I guess I just think it would be great to have it all? To be able to express all sides of yourself, without holding back...or feeling annoying, etc. I don't know...having moved away once before, and living on my own...I also realize there are certain things about my family's lifestyle that I wish would be different, or rather...that I hope to be different for myself. And there are just certain things my parents believe, that I don't necessarily agree with. I suppose I've developed some of my own opinions regarding some things, and it's weird to come back and be faced with that fact. I mean, before...with visits back home, I could always just leave. Now I'm here, and it sort of just feels weird. With friends...I had just often felt judged in the past, by most people. But there are a few I was close to being really close with. Or I was really close and felt near the point of feeling safe in being myself, but......I don't know, then something happens; it just never lasts for long, for whatever reason. I do fully know what you're saying, though, Rose. That you have to first be comfortable with yourself before being able to have that comfort around just about anyone. I suppose since I don't feel that comfort with myself, that's why it only happens with so few people. And it takes me so long to even get to that point of trust. And that's exhausting. It just amazes me how easily some people form connections with others, I mean...left and right, people are interacting and making acquaintances/friends all the time. They are so lucky, and they don't even realize it. I wish I was more social.
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Post by Rose on Jul 27, 2011 23:41:58 GMT -5
I guess I just think it would be great to have it all? To be able to express all sides of yourself, without holding back...or feeling annoying, etc. Do people make you feel annoying? It just amazes me how easily some people form connections with others, I mean...left and right, people are interacting and making acquaintances/friends all the time. They are so lucky, and they don't even realize it. I wish I was more social. Not sure if I'll ever understand that myself. Even if I wasn't shy, I don't think I'd like the responsibility of keeping in touch with that many people. I wish there were more hours in the day.
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Post by strawberrysweetie on Jul 29, 2011 2:50:06 GMT -5
I guess I just think it would be great to have it all? To be able to express all sides of yourself, without holding back...or feeling annoying, etc. Do people make you feel annoying? hmm...I suppose not necessarily. Siblings maybe, at times, but that's normal. And it's usually intended, lol. But when it comes to people outside of the family, that's usually not outright said. It's all based on my interpretation of their reactions. Plus, I find myself highly annoying, so I suppose I assume most other people must perceive me as annoying, as well. *sigh* lol I wish I wasn't so neurotic!
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Post by Karen on Jul 29, 2011 8:12:07 GMT -5
I'm the same way, I tend to assume people around me are just 'putting up' with me to be polite. Feeling like that makes it that much harder to go out and do things, it can be very frustrating. I try to remind myself that others never judge you as harshly as you judge yourself, but it's still something I struggle with a lot. I wish I hadn't lost my temper last night.
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Post by Sweet Pea on Jul 31, 2011 12:51:53 GMT -5
i could sleep.
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Post by geekguy on Aug 4, 2011 10:26:16 GMT -5
I randomly wish I was born back in medieval times, and that they had magic back then, because I would be the most badass sorcerer-knight ever ;D
I have also randomly wished that I was born a girl, on more than 1 occasion. I reckon I'd make a pretty awesome girl ;D (but I'd never entertain the notion of a sex change, ever)
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Post by Scotty on Aug 4, 2011 13:20:08 GMT -5
I have also randomly wished that I was born a girl, on more than 1 occasion. I reckon I'd make a pretty awesome girl ;D (but I'd never entertain the notion of a sex change, ever) Ditto! ;D I'd make an awesome lesbian.
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Post by Rose on Aug 4, 2011 13:56:05 GMT -5
I have also randomly wished that I was born a girl, on more than 1 occasion. I reckon I'd make a pretty awesome girl ;D (but I'd never entertain the notion of a sex change, ever) Ditto! ;D I'd make an awesome lesbian. Be happy you don't have to get periods. ;D I randomly wish I had a dime for every time I heard a dog bark. I'd be a millionaire at least.
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