{For those who have nothing better to do. THIS IS LONG!}
I've had several dreams within the past week! Been sleeping WAAAAAY too much. I really should have written these down right after they happened.
DREAM #1Several days ago (no more than a week ago), I had a dream about 2 murders. I was at fault. Supposedly one was in self-defense and the other, I'm not sure. But I don't think I knew either of the two people. I don't really know the details actually, and I don't ever recall anything about the actual act, but mostly I was just trying to run away from it. Quite literally, too. I ran across town (was living back home I guess) to my sister's place. Her husband wouldn't let me into the house. It was late and dark outside when that happened, I think.
I wasn't going to share this dream...because I didn't want people here to think I'm some sort of psycho with inner thoughts about killing people. Because I've never had them! But, it did make me feel better when I read up on it (dream interpretation info online) and it said that the dream could mean something about wanting to kill a part of yourself. Which would make total sense.
Or, if you don't buy into dream interpretation...crime shows/stories always catch my attention. And prior to that dream, I think that same night, I had just watched a show about almost the same thing...some guy killed someone and was trying to run away from it.
DREAM #2The night after that, I had another dream. Apparently I was back at home in this dream, too. All I remember is being mortified that my mom got a facebook account. I somehow was looking through her page....and I'm pretty sure I was thinking, as I looked through her page, that she seemed way cooler than me. lol
DREAM #3Now...I can't remember if this was the same night as the facebook dream or a night or two later.
But, I did have another dream about babies...believe it or not. I was actually glad too, because after the crime dream...I had hoped the babies would return!
I was sitting in a car (I think). To my right, was one sister's baby. Eventually I was holding this baby. Then, another sister of mine came in through the leftside holding her baby. Both these babies were quite young...possibly 2 or 3 months, I don't know exactly. But they don't have babies in real life that age anymore. Anyway, I was handed the second baby while I was still holding the other one, so I had two in my arms. Still rather small, but they sort of felt big as I held them both in my arms...well, actually, their heads were towards my stomach and their feet facing outwards, sort of more like laying on my lap. I don't know, that was weird itself....it was awkward holding them at the same time.
I mentioned something like...'well, I really don't think I'd ever want to have twins' and at the same time thinking it would be cool too, though. And also remembering how I myself wish I could have had a twin.
That part confused when I first remembered the dream about the babies, as I initially thought they were twins in my dream...but then I remember they were two different babies from two different sisters. lol...either way...weird.
In defense of this....well, I could say that it could partially be due to a class that I'm currently in (and coincidentally I slept though my first class as I had this dream and then woke up in time just to make it to this particular class which I'm referring to). Anyway this class I'm in is basically focused on the same issue all semester long: children/parenting. And several times, he mentioned personality and twins in saying that even they need to be raised somewhat differently sometimes and stuff. Acutally, he mentioned twins in class again, and I think that's when I promptly started remembering pieces of this dream.
DREAM #4Now....last night. I had a couple of weird dreams. The first one...I remember something about being back home (again, I guess
)...and I think we (me and my sibs) must have been younger. Anyway, one of my younger siblings was taking a bath or in the bathroom or something. I was standing by a light switch which oddly had several different switches I guess....because I kept turning them on/off...and instead of working for the room I thought they should be working for, they were instead operating this bathroom in which my sib was in.
I can't remember much of the details anymore....(though for some reason, I think there was a bit of strangeness/scariness surrounding the odd light occurences, if not by me, but at least by my younger sib, I think) Anway....then I'm in the same room as my father. And he says something like, "You let the kids rule your life" Or something like that.
I'm not sure I completely get this. But it struck me as almost a slap in the face, sort of thing. Like, it just really hurt when he told me that. Maybe I was supposed to be in charge of them or something and he thought they had reign over me by affecting me or worrying me, or something. I don't know...it was weird.
DREAM #5Okay...so now that brings me to the last, most recent dream I had. Which occurred the same night as that last one I just explained.
I was going for a walk, apparently. Out at this nature site, one somewhat similar to the one I've been to that's not so far away from my real apartment in real life. Except, it was supposedly in another state...though I'm not sure which one, just one somewhat close by I think.
Anyway....I specifically remember this brook and being intrigued/calmed by it. You know the gently flowing water over rocks. I love being around things like that. And there was this copper-metaly thing in the shape of an arrowhead found in this brook that really stuck out to me. Probably 'cause it was just strange, both in the dream and upon awakening. But there were like many of these copper/metally arrowheads there. They were pretty cool.
Then I remember some animals...several animals about, that apparently were so close, it was rather frightening. I think at this point it seemed I was with my younger two sibs....yet I don't remember actually seeing their faces (if that makes sense) but I'm pretty sure I was with two other people that were in my presence...I don't know....
But, the animals did seem too close for comfort. It was an odd mix too. I remember a rabbit for sure...and I think the other was a rather large bird or duck or something. Anyway...one of them actually attacked me.....bit me in the hand, well, on the thumb I think...and actually kept hold on me. I was like swinging around and turning around as quickly as I could to try and shake the thing off of me. It seemed to take forever to get it off. Then, still shocked...I was still there...and the animals were still close. I remember seeing a monkey then (odd for the environment in which I was in).
Then this lady comes walking past. She was definitely older than me, but also not that old...rather young I would say--late 20's or 30's maybe. She had somewhat long blonde hair, I think. Anyway, she just walks past, doesn't really look at us...and keeps on walking...but I noticed she dropped her phone along the way. It was a red one, looked like the cell phone I have in real life actually...but I knew it was hers. So, I got it (the animals were still about)....and I went after her to give it to her. As I gave it to her, I asked her how to keep the animals from bothering us.
I think all she told me was to just ignore them.
I really didn't think that would work and gave her a weird look.
Anyway...that's really all I can remember about that dream.
<In Analysis>
From the last couple of dreams I described....I'm thinking it might have something to do with the inner child in me....the part of me that doesn't know anything at all and is fearful and looking for answers that she can't get and for consoling and is so powerful that she pretty much is in control of the supposed adult me.
I think the lady in the last dream is quite possibly who I think I should be...or actually am, in a way. But she, even as an adult, doesn't have all the answers either.
Even though she told me to "ignore them"--in reference to my problems....I think she just lied just because she doesn't know the correct answer either, and she just didn't want to let on that she didn't really know.
The weird thing is that she seemed perfect, in a way...in spite of not knowing what to say in response to my question. In spite of dropping her phone and sort of walking by in a conceited/snobbish way, there was something more graceful about her...she just seemed so calm (undisturbed by those animals/'problems') and sort of at peace.
Conclusion? I think I need to learn to calm my inner child....come to accept the fact that I don't have the answers to everything and that things will just be difficult and that I need to just persist through my problems as they come along, without fear. Easier said than done, but...you know.
And in reference to the earlier dreams...the crime and facebook...I should probably cut back on tv shows--the news and horror stories I hear about and the internet, obviously.
You may be wondering...Why am I sharing this and in such great detail? Well, I'm wondering the same thing myself. I don't know really...there's just something about being able to share this type of stuff. Even if no one else reads it. I'm sick of keeping everything to myself, and my dreams are about the most eventful/interesting things as of late.