Post by 1one1 on Aug 27, 2009 13:15:03 GMT -5
OK, where do I begin?
My name is Eugene. I am a 23 year old male. Most of my life i've felt out of place and the feeling got worse as I got older. I grew up in a depressing "FAMILY" who was not really positive about life and who was very discouraging. Everyone grew apart and we basicly became a "family" of loners. Everyone went their seperate ways. Non of us has any friends or people we can count on. I guess that was the seed of why I became the way I became. I did not think that I would live to see the age of 18 because living with my brothers was pure hell. There were a lot of physical, mental, and emotional abuse. Many times I thought that I was going to lose my mom.etc etc etc...
Any way to fast forward alittle, I became suicidal sometime when I was a teenager. My mind was clouded pretty bad and I thought that death was the answer. All I had was myself to confide in and I became my own worse enemy. The people that I tried to confide in would only use what I told them against me to make me feel even worse. Eventually, my parents found out, did not know what to do. They took me to a psychiatrist. It did not help me much but I went along anyway to make other people content. I stop going eventually. I never took any of the meds they gave me because I already knew that I could get out of that state without them. The meds were actually a motivation to break out of that state just to prove that I can do it without them. etc. etc.
etc.
Fast Forward- Recently, i've been learning to adopt a new outlook on life. An outlook that i've never been tought, and starting to see that people around me does not have it, from what I see. A lot of people think very negative, but I am learning to see the good and the positive. My attitude and health is much better that way.etc etc etc.
I've learned one thing, "To change the world for the better, you must change yourself for the better". Thanks for reading. ;D
My name is Eugene. I am a 23 year old male. Most of my life i've felt out of place and the feeling got worse as I got older. I grew up in a depressing "FAMILY" who was not really positive about life and who was very discouraging. Everyone grew apart and we basicly became a "family" of loners. Everyone went their seperate ways. Non of us has any friends or people we can count on. I guess that was the seed of why I became the way I became. I did not think that I would live to see the age of 18 because living with my brothers was pure hell. There were a lot of physical, mental, and emotional abuse. Many times I thought that I was going to lose my mom.etc etc etc...
Any way to fast forward alittle, I became suicidal sometime when I was a teenager. My mind was clouded pretty bad and I thought that death was the answer. All I had was myself to confide in and I became my own worse enemy. The people that I tried to confide in would only use what I told them against me to make me feel even worse. Eventually, my parents found out, did not know what to do. They took me to a psychiatrist. It did not help me much but I went along anyway to make other people content. I stop going eventually. I never took any of the meds they gave me because I already knew that I could get out of that state without them. The meds were actually a motivation to break out of that state just to prove that I can do it without them. etc. etc.
etc.
Fast Forward- Recently, i've been learning to adopt a new outlook on life. An outlook that i've never been tought, and starting to see that people around me does not have it, from what I see. A lot of people think very negative, but I am learning to see the good and the positive. My attitude and health is much better that way.etc etc etc.
I've learned one thing, "To change the world for the better, you must change yourself for the better". Thanks for reading. ;D