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Post by misssarah on Jun 13, 2010 18:53:23 GMT -5
All of my friends are more like acquaintances. I'm pretty much an accessory friend. I get invited to baby showers, bridal showers, bbqs, anything where you're expected to bring a gift or something to eat. Other than that, pretty much zip.
I had leukemia for 5 years. That's when I learned that everyone I thought was my friend or family actually didn't really care that much about me. That's when my shyness began. It's not easy to be outgoing when you feel and look like crap. No one ever visited me in the hospital, even when I had my bone marrow transplant and was there for 6 months. It sucked. The only thing that got me through was I promised myself that when I got better I would meet someone or some people that cared. Yeah, I haven't. Not one. I met one person that I started to really care for and actually felt close to, but he could pretty much care less about me.
So now I have a brain tumor, probably from all of my leukemia radiation. I don't know if it's cancer or not. I haven't told anyone. I don't have anyone to tell. I'm sad and scared, and I just can't go through all that bullshit of treatment again with no one caring because frankly, I don't anymore. But I can't keep it all inside because it hurts too much. Sorry to emotionally dump, but it just sucks and I don't know what else to do.
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Post by strawberrysweetie on Jun 13, 2010 21:05:23 GMT -5
oh wow....I am so very sorry to hear that. *hug* I know it's not as good as in real life, but if you ever want someone to talk to, feel free to PM me.
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Post by tylo on Jun 13, 2010 23:21:10 GMT -5
Your not alone. I'm here if you need a friend.
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Post by adriana on Jun 20, 2010 16:43:41 GMT -5
That's a lot to go through, especially alone. But you have strength to still be making it. Don't worry about dumping emotions here; everyone is available to listen.
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Post by madiocre on Jul 10, 2010 4:06:38 GMT -5
*Hugs* this place is all about the dumping of emotions so feel free to dump ahead.
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