Post by Tainted Angel on Sept 26, 2011 15:28:45 GMT -5
I remembered when I used to want company, to want feel accepted, & have someone to talk to, but I was just too shy, but now years has passed, & suddenly now, I have gain confidence & created holes in my shell, yet I feel like I don't want to talk to anyone anymore.
I feel like I don't want to ask how someone's morning is or what they did over the weekend. I feel like I don't want to make an effort to create a conversation.
In the mornings, I tend to talk a lot with my family, but when I get to school, which is very early, I tend to avoid my friends & just walk around the school by myself, sometimes going through the same area more than thrice.
Though when I do find a friend, I end up forcing myself to try to make conversation, & then suddenly feel happy & wanting to talk to other people.... it's weird.
Also, I don't mind being by myself, doing work or sitting alone, in class but I hate what people might think of me when I'm alone.... I hate that they're thinking... "Loner" or "Why she's alone?" or something else.