|
Post by dumpling on Jan 8, 2012 19:48:51 GMT -5
I guess it would be good to start a diary
So I'll jump right in...
I'm finally back in school for the time being. I'm on the long stretch and I can't wait until it's over because honestly I'm getting tired of this school thing. Though I wish I could be more passionate about school.
I like school and I like learning but I just don't like having to deal with so many people. Well, I like people but only nice people, and I feel like most college students are not nice. At least not here. Or maybe it's just me.
I moved into my dorm today. Luckily I got a room to myself so I can be a hermit. It's so exhausting to have to be around people. I know that sounds bad and I don't know at what point I became like this. Anyway, as I was saying, I moved in and met my roommates. They seem nice but it really doesn't seem like they're going to be anyone who would consider me their friend. Should I even bother trying to befriend them? Or should I just be nice to them but not go out of my way to get to know them? I've tried to former many times in college and it always backfires.
My roommates...seem extra clean and orderly. I'm extra clean and orderly too but I also don't force people to conform to my ways, and it seems like they do or would. I don't like scheduled cleaning time and being treated like a kid. I like to do things on my own time. It makes me very uncomfortable when people try to impose dominance upon someone. I like peace so generally when that's done to me I just do what they ask...but still...it makes me want to do and say not so nice things.
Also...I don't want to jump to any conclusions but, I'm black (half) and all of my roommates I've been assigned with currently and in the past have all been black or part black too. Maybe it's a coincidence how this has happened 3 times already but I'm not sure if I like it. I want to meet people from different cultures. I noticed that most other dorms have roommates of all one race/ethnicity too. I dunno...I just find that disturbing because I don't want to be put into a box for something as stupid as race.
For some reason I really feel on edge and anxious right now and that's not a good sign. This is the feeling I get when I'm going into depression.
|
|
|
Post by dumpling on Jan 13, 2012 22:28:24 GMT -5
I'm annoyed today.
My roommates are nothing like me. I really wish I had gotten nerdy or modest roommates. Why does this happen every year?
It seems like the only thing they really like to do for fun is party and drink. I really dislike most rap and that's really all they listen to (right now I'm hearing the lyrics "I got money and hoes, money and hoes"...Really? This is what women like to hear?). They wear heels almost every day and I wear sneakers. They're like total opposites of me. Lol this is starting to sound like that one Taylor Swift song.
I don't necessarily think there's anything wrong with them and their likes and interests, I just wish that I could for once meet someone who is like me. I've met guys that are like me but not any girls.
I wonder why most girls my age are all the same? Did they start off like this or were they different and conformed?
I met some girls in the waiting room a couple of days ago and they seemed similar enough to me but as soon as the girl opened her mouth I found out that I was wrong. I wonder if she was only talking like that because she thought I was like one of those stereotypical shallow girls.
All of this sounds so negative. Hmm let me think of something positive. Oh tomorrow I'm going shopping! I'm going to pick up groceries, a few things for my room, and a gift for my counselor. I think I want to get her a plant and a card.
Lately I've been wanting one of those cute little hermit crabs. I think it would be cute to have 2 with nicely decorated shells.
Also today I was supposed to be going to a knitting class but I forgot that it was today. I already know hot to knit but I thought it might have been nice to meet people that don't think knitting is too old fashioned.
|
|
|
Post by Zoe on Jan 14, 2012 7:42:57 GMT -5
Its disheartening when you are surrounded by people who are not similar to yourself. I only hope you find like minded people through the extra-curriculars in your campus. I wonder if it is the media creating this idea that what they are doing is the social norm. If so, it is very disappointing....and kudos to you for being yourself.
I was surprised that campus allows pets, hermit crabs are pretty cool though....and probably low maintenance. Good luck with that. I thought knitting was an "in" thing?? then again, i don't follow trends that much..... hope you have fun next time you are there......would love to see some of your final creations in the the end
I wish you the best, take care and have a safe week - Zoe
|
|
|
Post by marle on Jan 14, 2012 18:29:40 GMT -5
They wear heels almost every day and I wear sneakers. They're like total opposites of me. Lol this is starting to sound like that one Taylor Swift song. LOL'd here because I thought the same thing. I'm going to pick up groceries, a few things for my room, and a gift for my counselor. I think I want to get her a plant and a card. Are you close with your counselor? What was the occasion for the gift? If you don't mind me asking. Also today I was supposed to be going to a knitting class but I forgot that it was today. I already know hot to knit but I thought it might have been nice to meet people that don't think knitting is too old fashioned. That sounds like a great way to meet people.
|
|
|
Post by lostmyself on Jan 15, 2012 12:32:54 GMT -5
I don't necessarily think there's anything wrong with them and their likes and interests, I just wish that I could for once meet someone who is like me. I've met guys that are like me but not any girls. I know what you mean, my closest friends are usually guys. I think it's a good idea too that you're thinking of going to classes to meet people, you're more likely to meet like minded people there.
|
|
|
Post by dumpling on Jan 15, 2012 15:46:52 GMT -5
Its disheartening when you are surrounded by people who are not similar to yourself. I only hope you find like minded people through the extra-curriculars in your campus. I wonder if it is the media creating this idea that what they are doing is the social norm. If so, it is very disappointing....and kudos to you for being yourself. I was surprised that campus allows pets, hermit crabs are pretty cool though....and probably low maintenance. Good luck with that. I thought knitting was an "in" thing?? then again, i don't follow trends that much..... hope you have fun next time you are there......would love to see some of your final creations in the the end I wish you the best, take care and have a safe week - Zoe I hope I find like-minded people too. Somehow I don't think it's going to happen. If it hasn't yet I don't think it will. Yeah, well the media is very influential to young people especially so you're probably right about that. Probably some peer pressure thrown in there too. Some pets are allowed. The hypoallergenic kind like fish and hermit crabs. I think I just really need a little buddy, something to take care of. Plus cute things automatically cheer me up. I don't know that many people under age 40 that know how to sew or knit or rather admit to knowing how. It's too domestic and not glamourous or cool enough. I'm not sure if it's a one-time only class though or if they have it every week. If I had gone I could have found out Thanks so much for reading and commenting ^^ LOL'd here because I thought the same thing. Are you close with your counselor? What was the occasion for the gift? If you don't mind me asking. That sounds like a great way to meet people. I'm not particularly close with her as I don't know her outside of the office and I have only known her for a few months, but I do like her and she's very nice to me. She's very understanding and we actually have the same personality type (INTJ) so she gets me. She's done a lot in attempt to help me too. There's no occassion. I just like giving people gifts too lol (if I like them). It's just one of those things that make me really happy. My counselor seems like she has everything so there weren't a lot of things that I could think to get her, but I figured a plant would be good since every plant is unique. I'm actually in the process of designing a car for my uncle as a gift. Well partly for practice and addition to my portfolio too but originally for him and inspired by my uncle. I know what you mean, my closest friends are usually guys. I think it's a good idea too that you're thinking of going to classes to meet people, you're more likely to meet like minded people there. Yeah well the thing is...I don't have any guy friends either lol. I only hope they will have the knitting class next week. Some of those classes here are more like "workshops" so they only have them once or twice.
|
|
|
Post by dumpling on Jan 15, 2012 16:54:39 GMT -5
Today, I have nothing to do so I'm just going to write more about my boring life.
I really enjoy being in my room. It always smells so good and it's warm and cozy and somewhat colorful. I can sing, dance, openly pull out wedgie, hug pillow, squeal at youtube kitty videos, play video games, doodle, etc, without anyone thinking I'm weird.
Speaking of Youtube kitty videos, I really like this one.
Today I ate strawberries but they tasted like water so I put sugar on them and that gave me instant happiness. I remember last year, I ate a container of strawberries in two days and my roommates were like "Omg you ate all of those strawberries already?!" That made me feel like a fatty and I was almost on eating disorder level for a couple of weeks because I'm sensitive like that. Well I 'was' sensitive like that. Now I wish someone would say something about my eating habits. I don't care what they would think I would continue to do what I please.
Now that I've segwayed to the topic of food. I really feel like cooking some of the korean recipes I know, but last year I used to make korean food and my roommates would tell me how much it stinks. So lately I've been only making american/western foods because I don't want to offend anyone, but last night, I made some chicken nuggets and they were like "eww, what's that smell?" (My thoughts were .__. ) So I think that cooking in general grosses them out. They never cook. They only make things using the microwave so I guess maybe they're not used to it?
So I'm thinking that maybe I'm come off as a b**** to people (please excuse that bad word because I usually don't say things like that but that's the most accurate word to describe how I think some people see me). Maybe I just have the look (even though I think I'm opposite of that). Or maybe some people misinterpret my shyness/awkwardness. Like if I enter a place where people are, or if people are coming into a place where I am, am I supposed to say something? If I am supposed to greet/regard them, at what point does it get annoying? Because I also think I can come across as annoying when I'm not coming across as a b****.
Also yesterday, I was in the kitchen, washing dishes and a guest for my roommate came over. She introduced her to everyone, and I guess she forgot about me because there was a pause, then she was like "...and this is our roommate Dumpling". I said "Hi ^_^" and her guest was like "...oh" and then proceeded to talk about some guy they knew. Can I get a "hi", "nice to meet you", something? Like what is it about me that cause people to treat me like that? Gah! It's...frustrating. Maybe they think I'm gay and coming onto them or something? Because I am on the tall side, and even though nearly all of my clothing is girls clothing, somehow they look boyish/not girly and I have been told that I am a tom-boy and I act like a boy (but I think I'm girly and I have some very girly interests too).
So something very annoying is happening to my skin. I typically have very oily, acne prone skin but today I woke up with dry patches on my face. It's around my nose and eyebrows. I washed my face and the skin was actually coming off in those areas. Now it even slightly hurts in those areas. I put some moisturizer on it and those areas still seem rough, and dry, and flaky. My acne is gone but now there's there's this problem in it's place.
Not an interesting entry but honestly my life is not interesting. I actually just plan on spending the day in my room. I was going to go for a walk (which is also boring) but it's too cold outside <_< (yes that is the excuse I'm giving).
|
|
|
Post by marle on Jan 17, 2012 19:21:32 GMT -5
Not an interesting entry but honestly my life is not interesting. Your entry was definitely interesting, even when you're describing everyday life stuff. You have an engaging style of writing. My favorite part:
|
|