Post by anothershy1 on Jan 4, 2014 20:35:54 GMT -5
Ok, so I have completed what I aimed for in life job in a investment bank, amazing things (not that it matters when human contact seems to be the thing to have), worldwide holidays (alone) but now have no idea what do, bar leave this hell hole of a world, I've traveled the world alone and hated it, because everyone stares at the bloke on his own when eating I've done well for myself but having been violently threatened whilst stuck in traffic at lights several time (purely over my italatin super car why should someone be threaded just because they've worked hard and made to feel like a loser by these scum pricks. Who seem to have it all ), attacked on the train for been a 'loaner' other people looked on and laughed girls I only wished I could be with. Traveling on the train I see a girl I like and not once have they ever sat next to me when mine it the only seat left or b stood next to me on the platform (I' not ugly or fat and hit the gym twice a day 5 times a week don't smell and am always in immaculate suits) I've found myself on several occasions standing on a roof top bar staring at the concentrate below thinking, then everyday on the train standing on the platform edge watching the wheels on the rail, every birthday I think one more year to the exit. I've had a serious injury and upon reflection in the hospital seeing other people have visitors family/friends/partners come and visit them only made it hard for me not to break down through the night every night. Reading all the information on asburgers/love shy and other variations of it. I think I'm becoming mentally unstable and breaking down