Im trying...PLEASE HELP ME

[imnotshy]

I have always been aware of myself around other people...

 Before I leave my house I have to make sure that every strand of hair is tucked neatly in place but now I know that people will never notice that one strand that is not. And even if they DO its okay! Its not the end of the world. What you look like does not define the person that you are! I’m 16 and I’m still finding out the person that I am and I have a lot of time ahead of me to do exactly that.

These 4 years of high school don’t define me and I shouldn’t let them! I have always always always been known as the shy person throughout my life and frankly im sick of it because when you get to know me im not shy AT ALL! But the thing is I have never really let anyone in to see that im not the quiet kid. I don’t really know how to express myself very well. Most of the time

 I don’t even have an opinion-I know its that bad.

 I care too much about what other people think of me and I don’t know how to stop doing that since ive been doing it for so long. I want to become my own person and I want to love myself more. Can you please help me?? Im trying…

[puppet]

I'm not sure how to do it as I'm still looking for way to deal with those "issues".
One thing I have been thinking about was "why not turn the thing around"?
I'm unable to let people in by just trying to get them to. So why not just focus on finding what I like?
By that, I mean going out : having activities, going to concerts, museums,... And see if others are interested to come with you.
I think it is a nice opening, a way to get to know others through a shared passion.

Do it once, twice,... Repeat. Now, with time, thing should go further? I suppose.
Well. This is just a guess. 

I'll just wish you luck!

[imnotshy]

Thank you.. yes.. that does make sense doesn't it??? I'm a bit of an introvert and I tend to stay in and study and have an okay time instead of having a great time outside my comfort zone. And about those 'issues' well I guess it will improve as time goes on, I mean it HAS to doesn't it? *FINGERS CROSSED*
Thank you for all your help and I wish you good luck too.