Post by anonomie on Jul 21, 2014 23:55:36 GMT -5
Not sure what to say. I thought I had found a job I could FINALLY, FINALLY retire from. I survived for over a year and a half because I had a psycho boss who REFUSED to talk to any one except her 3 favorite people. I was not a favorite, but she got to know that I keep good email records and backed off for the most part. But now there's a new supervisor and he HATES that I am quiet and shy. It is SOOO hard because I am VERY good at my job as a social worker and working with my clients. I just struggle with the office politics and have some PTSD from past experiences w/ work harassment b/c of my shyness. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my work as a social worker, but am feeling like I'm at a dead end. No one CARES if you change lives and do a good job with your clients. If you aren't a kiss butt bubbly cheerleader type, it's just SOOO hard. I'm just tired of having to fight to prove my worth....As one wise shy person said, the hardest thing about shyness is being a good person and never getting credit for it.....I am in my mid 30's and still living at home (I did move out twice in the past)....but anyway, I am at a point now where my job is not working out for political reasons....I am sure there's a plan to get rid of me (HANDS DOWN SURE). I'm angry b/c I have loads of student loan debt and CAN'T get out of my parent's house b/c I can NEVER get any job stability. I feel like such a failure even though I've worked SO FREAKIN' hard. This is just so difficult and I'm struggling to "find my place" in the world. I feel like I'm letting my parents down...I always thought I'd be taking care of THEM!!! I want to work from home soooo bad, but all those jobs require more schooling and I just don't know....just having a hard time.