Post by Audio the obscure on Jan 9, 2018 21:55:46 GMT -5
Well as far as music: I have not a lot of interest in keeping up with it. I am too sore and tired most days with the joint pain (perhaps it's fibromyalgia, idk). I probably am not going to improve in it since I started playing guitar when I was 15. Not trying to be negative, just realistic. I may even sell the guitar and keyboard (not that I care about that much about money, but anyway...).
About Keith (or any potential "S.O" for that matter) - haven't seen him in awhile (since the last update I gave). He's probably hunkering down for the winter at his new apt he mentioned to me the last time we spoke. Hopefully he's doing well. I am attempting to be realistic in this regard also. He is in his mid 30s while I am in my mid 50s. There is no viable future for us as a couple and I accept that fully. I have been from time to time (since he visited me last) been thinking about this a lot. He may want to have children someday since he still has that potential. The age difference between us is something that is a concern. (I have a headache at the moment and am finding it most difficult to express myself in this post so please bear with this, if anyone's reading).
I have taken up knitting again, and more wholeheartedly now than before. I have started small projects to keep busy at this of late. I plan I hope to channel my music and inventive creativity into knitting projects. Perhaps in the future I may plan to purchase a sewing machine and see if I can make a few clothing items. But for now the knitting will be my "keeping busy" activity at home in the apt. I have a lot of knee/leg pain (both legs/knees) which is very tiring also. I am not able to get the outdoor exercise walking in as I used to do when I first started on su in 2006. I still miss it, but I have to do the best I can do and not get too sore or overtired.
I try to incorporate as much humour as I can in my life as I know that "laughter is the best medicine", as Reader's Digest says, I believe. I am also unfortunately (but I feel it has to be done to minimise stress) remove myself from as many negative stressors (including people) as possible; some call it "energy drainers" or similar expressions. I laugh a lot, even making up a lot of my own jokes, just in private here at home. Anything to keep stress at bay and maybe aid in the lessening of the physical pain I have almost constantly some days.
Religious-wise (probably not too many on here interested in this, but anyways)... reading the Bible, praying, etc. I may get back to Church sometime...don't know when at the time of this post writing. For now taking things day by day.
Financial - probably the best of all things I've mentioned, so far. I have very few needs, and continue to buy what's on sale, as I need. May have to purchase another air conditioner (I hope not); but the money's there if it becomes necessary this summer, or a little before then.
Emotional - not the best. I'm holding in a lot (probably adding to stress, of course). I'm bottling up a lot inside, unfortunately. A lot of unresolved issues with certain human beings. I want desperately to make amends to all I've hurt, and I mean ALL; however it is difficult for me to express it to certain ones. I'm trying desperately to keep negativity at bay or from taking hold. Depressions - the really deep ones are not as often as before, but when they come (occasionally) they really come. Fortunately, they last only a few days at the most; but they are very intense when they do. Well there's probably more, but I can't think of the rest at the moment. I hope I don't have to come back to add it because my mind is tired (probably because of the headache).
About Keith (or any potential "S.O" for that matter) - haven't seen him in awhile (since the last update I gave). He's probably hunkering down for the winter at his new apt he mentioned to me the last time we spoke. Hopefully he's doing well. I am attempting to be realistic in this regard also. He is in his mid 30s while I am in my mid 50s. There is no viable future for us as a couple and I accept that fully. I have been from time to time (since he visited me last) been thinking about this a lot. He may want to have children someday since he still has that potential. The age difference between us is something that is a concern. (I have a headache at the moment and am finding it most difficult to express myself in this post so please bear with this, if anyone's reading).
I have taken up knitting again, and more wholeheartedly now than before. I have started small projects to keep busy at this of late. I plan I hope to channel my music and inventive creativity into knitting projects. Perhaps in the future I may plan to purchase a sewing machine and see if I can make a few clothing items. But for now the knitting will be my "keeping busy" activity at home in the apt. I have a lot of knee/leg pain (both legs/knees) which is very tiring also. I am not able to get the outdoor exercise walking in as I used to do when I first started on su in 2006. I still miss it, but I have to do the best I can do and not get too sore or overtired.
I try to incorporate as much humour as I can in my life as I know that "laughter is the best medicine", as Reader's Digest says, I believe. I am also unfortunately (but I feel it has to be done to minimise stress) remove myself from as many negative stressors (including people) as possible; some call it "energy drainers" or similar expressions. I laugh a lot, even making up a lot of my own jokes, just in private here at home. Anything to keep stress at bay and maybe aid in the lessening of the physical pain I have almost constantly some days.
Religious-wise (probably not too many on here interested in this, but anyways)... reading the Bible, praying, etc. I may get back to Church sometime...don't know when at the time of this post writing. For now taking things day by day.
Financial - probably the best of all things I've mentioned, so far. I have very few needs, and continue to buy what's on sale, as I need. May have to purchase another air conditioner (I hope not); but the money's there if it becomes necessary this summer, or a little before then.
Emotional - not the best. I'm holding in a lot (probably adding to stress, of course). I'm bottling up a lot inside, unfortunately. A lot of unresolved issues with certain human beings. I want desperately to make amends to all I've hurt, and I mean ALL; however it is difficult for me to express it to certain ones. I'm trying desperately to keep negativity at bay or from taking hold. Depressions - the really deep ones are not as often as before, but when they come (occasionally) they really come. Fortunately, they last only a few days at the most; but they are very intense when they do. Well there's probably more, but I can't think of the rest at the moment. I hope I don't have to come back to add it because my mind is tired (probably because of the headache).