Post by Russell on Jan 31, 2004 18:38:15 GMT -5
okay well i suppose i should get some background of myself out of the way, dont know about everyone else but im always intrested in people (even if it is often mis inerpretated as nosy 
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im from england and im 17, unlike some i havent been shy all my life, my shyness, antisocial behaviour, oddness started in an incident where i was bascially beaten up with my friends at that time just watching, that was about 4 years ago now, anyhow off i go....to begin with i was scared to leave the house, on a promise that the same thing would happen, i dont know if that in turn let to what i am now, or if it just sped up the cycle of things, my attendance at school was bad, purely because although i wasnt directly bullied, i was indirectly if it makes sense due to the fact i was always so tall, fairly intelignet and actually enjoyed learning, i finshed school last septemeber and enrolled in college (the 2nd to last year of the equiv of american high school, i think
) hoping that new change, new people everything would be different, 4 months down the line and nothing has changed, i was still shy and anti social and still felt in capable of putting a sentence together. last week i dropped out due to the fact it wasnt what i wanted to do, ive decided to get a job until the start of the next education year so to speak (septemeber) but im worried if once again nothing will change and that mayby its just destined to be like this 
...another bane to me is mental illness, currently i suffer from depression, and almost everyone else on my mums side of the famiy so aswell, my mum herself is schitzofrenci and bi polar, kinda worried about becoming the same because i saw how dependant she was on her family and it makes me wonder "what if i havent found anyone by then"....
anyhow thats enough on the background of me, i was kind of wondering how much of a role the internet and computers played in peoples life, with me being scared to leave the house i often spend 14 hours a day on a computer, almost like an addiction
-Russell
)...im from england and im 17, unlike some i havent been shy all my life, my shyness, antisocial behaviour, oddness started in an incident where i was bascially beaten up with my friends at that time just watching, that was about 4 years ago now, anyhow off i go....to begin with i was scared to leave the house, on a promise that the same thing would happen, i dont know if that in turn let to what i am now, or if it just sped up the cycle of things, my attendance at school was bad, purely because although i wasnt directly bullied, i was indirectly if it makes sense due to the fact i was always so tall, fairly intelignet and actually enjoyed learning, i finshed school last septemeber and enrolled in college (the 2nd to last year of the equiv of american high school, i think
) hoping that new change, new people everything would be different, 4 months down the line and nothing has changed, i was still shy and anti social and still felt in capable of putting a sentence together. last week i dropped out due to the fact it wasnt what i wanted to do, ive decided to get a job until the start of the next education year so to speak (septemeber) but im worried if once again nothing will change and that mayby its just destined to be like this 
...another bane to me is mental illness, currently i suffer from depression, and almost everyone else on my mums side of the famiy so aswell, my mum herself is schitzofrenci and bi polar, kinda worried about becoming the same because i saw how dependant she was on her family and it makes me wonder "what if i havent found anyone by then"....anyhow thats enough on the background of me, i was kind of wondering how much of a role the internet and computers played in peoples life, with me being scared to leave the house i often spend 14 hours a day on a computer, almost like an addiction
-Russell
