Post by HAZE on Feb 7, 2004 14:54:38 GMT -5
hey people, good to see your all still here,
as a few of you know i dont get out much and just keep busy around the house. but today my dad asked me to go to the supermarket with him, i said maybe. this might not seen a big deal to some of you but a havn't been for about a year, since the time i thought everyone was watching me. but today i wanted to go, dont get me wrong though there still was that little voice inside that diddn't want to but i seen a book called something like "feel the fear and do it anyway" so that what i done. got in the car a went. i knew i couldnt not go then. but i was ok, butterflys in the stomoch and all that but fine. when we got in knowone was watching me my dad really understool what it was like and kept me talking which was nice. but for about the first 15-20 mins i still was really tense and felt all juddery if you know what thats like. so i guess i probley looked nervous but everyone was so busy looking at all the discounts and rejects they never noticed. there was a fair few mean looking people their but the only people i touched eyes with was a couple of foxy ladies, though i think the just liked my clothes. anyway it was not liked i thought it would be, i diddnt get stared at or jocked about and im going to go next time too. and yesterday i took my dog round the park by myself, even if it was in the dark.
so people stay cool and keep alook out for my hym of the week****peace*****
= HAZE=
as a few of you know i dont get out much and just keep busy around the house. but today my dad asked me to go to the supermarket with him, i said maybe. this might not seen a big deal to some of you but a havn't been for about a year, since the time i thought everyone was watching me. but today i wanted to go, dont get me wrong though there still was that little voice inside that diddn't want to but i seen a book called something like "feel the fear and do it anyway" so that what i done. got in the car a went. i knew i couldnt not go then. but i was ok, butterflys in the stomoch and all that but fine. when we got in knowone was watching me my dad really understool what it was like and kept me talking which was nice. but for about the first 15-20 mins i still was really tense and felt all juddery if you know what thats like. so i guess i probley looked nervous but everyone was so busy looking at all the discounts and rejects they never noticed. there was a fair few mean looking people their but the only people i touched eyes with was a couple of foxy ladies, though i think the just liked my clothes. anyway it was not liked i thought it would be, i diddnt get stared at or jocked about and im going to go next time too. and yesterday i took my dog round the park by myself, even if it was in the dark.
so people stay cool and keep alook out for my hym of the week****peace*****
= HAZE=