Post by IRoardedAloudHere on Jul 8, 2004 6:38:08 GMT -5
Just wondering what is going on in your lives right now.. how are you feeling at this stage in your life.. for example.. I'm going to tell you all (not sure how much you care lol) what's been going on in my head lately.
I think I've missed a normal teenage life, and now in my 20s, maybe it's sneaking up on me. Mostly I just want to be free. I've been traveling a lot for that reason, mostly to go to concerts, cuz they are almost my #1 favorite thing to do. There's nothing like the energy in the crowd, the band, etc. It's wonderful. Nothing like the moshpit, lol.
I've never done anything "bad" and lately I've been considering trying marijuana. I wouldn't want to try anything really hard but it doesn't seem like this would be too harmful and I'd like to know what the experience is like. Sometimes I just imagine going out and having promiscuous sex and smoking up with these people I know, have talked to online, whatever. I sound really lame but at least I know here that there are a lot of others who don't have a huge social life that I can feel threatened by (hope that didn't sound mean).
Anyway, onto freedom. Yeah that's my big thing, but this part, it isn't a phase I don't think. The whole experimenting with drugs thing is, but freedom is something that I will always feel important to my life. But I think I may be spoiled with the idea that I can have anything in life I'd like, make my life however I choose to. I feel beyond the person who is stuck working (at a pointless job) to make a living, like I don't deserve that. But who am I?
But continuing.. I just have this different idea of life than lots of other people. I think it's because maybe I'm allowing my mind to be open enough to actually try to REAL-IZE my dreamed life.. it's not just a fantasy.
Like I wouldn't mind living on a deserted island for a year, or living in a tree, just something really basic. Or I'd like to do just some off-the-wall job for money, but for some reason I'm lazy and instead of thinking of something else to do right now I stay at my dead-end job.
I know what I want long-term but if I don't get off my lazy ass it'll soon be too late. It'll be really hard for me to get into it too.. I want to have my own band.. but because of my low self-confidence in my looks and intelligence I know it will be rough. But anyway.. so tell me all what you're going through at the time.
I think I've missed a normal teenage life, and now in my 20s, maybe it's sneaking up on me. Mostly I just want to be free. I've been traveling a lot for that reason, mostly to go to concerts, cuz they are almost my #1 favorite thing to do. There's nothing like the energy in the crowd, the band, etc. It's wonderful. Nothing like the moshpit, lol.
I've never done anything "bad" and lately I've been considering trying marijuana. I wouldn't want to try anything really hard but it doesn't seem like this would be too harmful and I'd like to know what the experience is like. Sometimes I just imagine going out and having promiscuous sex and smoking up with these people I know, have talked to online, whatever. I sound really lame but at least I know here that there are a lot of others who don't have a huge social life that I can feel threatened by (hope that didn't sound mean).
Anyway, onto freedom. Yeah that's my big thing, but this part, it isn't a phase I don't think. The whole experimenting with drugs thing is, but freedom is something that I will always feel important to my life. But I think I may be spoiled with the idea that I can have anything in life I'd like, make my life however I choose to. I feel beyond the person who is stuck working (at a pointless job) to make a living, like I don't deserve that. But who am I?
But continuing.. I just have this different idea of life than lots of other people. I think it's because maybe I'm allowing my mind to be open enough to actually try to REAL-IZE my dreamed life.. it's not just a fantasy.
Like I wouldn't mind living on a deserted island for a year, or living in a tree, just something really basic. Or I'd like to do just some off-the-wall job for money, but for some reason I'm lazy and instead of thinking of something else to do right now I stay at my dead-end job.
I know what I want long-term but if I don't get off my lazy ass it'll soon be too late. It'll be really hard for me to get into it too.. I want to have my own band.. but because of my low self-confidence in my looks and intelligence I know it will be rough. But anyway.. so tell me all what you're going through at the time.
