peekaboo
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I can fly, I can fly!!
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Post by peekaboo on Dec 12, 2004 21:47:59 GMT -5
am I invisible walk over me like a doormat go ahead make your mark stain me with your dirty talk I'm so sad I can't take no more so I'm knocking on heavens door hoping tonight God opens his arms and welcomes this lonely soul Keeping to myself can't take the hurt I hate my family they treat me like dirt I feel squished when I'm around them theres no room for me to grow I hate them I hate them when I leave I'm not coming back just gonna say goodbye and that ain't no lie where can I go where can I hide I don't want to be here but I don't have a ride and my wings are broken so I can't fly Gonna kill myself cuz I ain't happy here My soul has died and rebirth a million times the pain is eating away my heart with only a little piece left tonight may be my last pain has taken over I've overdosed on so many painkillers but that won't make the pain go So what kills pain? Tell me before it kills me. Some people say it is selfish to kill yourself and have a loved one find you dead...but when they are the people who drove you to death they should be the people who see it and then live with all the pain that they have caused you!!!
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Post by Medici on Dec 12, 2004 22:22:44 GMT -5
I had a lot of those same feelings. Sometimes I would think about how much I could hurt my family by killing myself. But I'll tell you this. When I did eventually get out on my own and had some success, they really changed their tune. It took me a long time, but I had to believe in myself and do what I knew was right.
In all honesty, I still have some feelings of resentment towards my family. I know I shouldn't expect them to be perfect but some of the things they did really hurt me and its hard to see how they could have done them if they really cared. But they are human too. I've done bad things to other people, and they've done bad things to me. I always try to learn and do better.
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