Hi everyone , My name is jassem im from middle east ( Kuwait ) . im kind of a shy person of course anyway im 32 years old , I don't work , I fell like im a loser , I spend my day drawing , writing ,and watching tv . Actually I have been working in the water and electricity ministry for about five years , after that I got a breakdown , it was severe depression , I went to Psychological hospital , and I spent there for about 7 months and after that I got better with the medication of course , but I couldn't go back to my work , I feel like I would humiliate my self if I got back , I mean my friends at work they would ask me where were you all that time , what my answer would be , if I told them, they would feel sorry for me and they would treat me different than before and I don’t want that , I don't want peoples treat me like a chilled , like I have problems , I know I do , but I don't others know , I want to keep it for my self , I don't know . I don't have a lot of friends , I have just a few though I don't go out with them because im afraid that I got self conscious , and feel like losing control , and of course humiliate my self in front of them and disappoint them , like they expected different act from my side , and they would expect from me to be socialist and talkative with them all the time which im not , im not a social person , nor outgoing , what I do , I don't have a girlfriend because of that , im awkward , I don't feel that I can fit in , I just don’t'.
Post by missmidnight on Jan 8, 2009 1:51:30 GMT -5
, if I told them, they would feel sorry for me and they would treat me different than before and I don’t want that ,
you never know, they may have had similar things in their past, too. I know at least 4 or 5 people who have been institutionalized at some point in their lives, and I've had a few relatives go through nervous breakdowns.... so it's more common than you might think.
And a few friends is a lot better than zero, maybe there's one that you could talk with one-on-one about some of this.
im awkward , I don't feel that I can fit in , I just don’t'.