I think it might be more then just shyness... Mar 15, 2009 21:04:53 GMT -5
Post by coat on Mar 15, 2009 21:04:53 GMT -5
like, if you're shy enough to join a forum like this, it must be pretty bad right? I think I suffer from social anxiety disorder, I feel nervous around new people and even people who I've known for some time. My starsign is a Leo so you'd expect me to be loud and bubbly, I used to be as a little girl, when my mum died I just lost all confidence; I have no idea why! I have no friends in my new college, my best friend now has a new best friend, I am very jealous The girl she is best friends with was a good friend of mine and I once went camping at the beach with her. On top of all this, I am 16 and have never kissed a boy. I'm not ugly or fat, people say it's because i'm picky when in fact it's because i'm terrified of it! like, I wouldn't want the guy to go bragging about it to all his friends or I would be so afraid of doing it wrong, I'm completely clueless! I'd be too scared to just go with the music n just let that kiss happen. I want to get it over and done with I don't like being labeled as a 'kiss virgin' at my age. Anywho I am depressed at college, because I have nobody to eat lunch with I go to the library and read a book. (I'm reading carrie at the mo ) so by the time I get home I feel so weak and hungry plus sometimes I have no time for breakfast. I stutter when I ask for something in a shop and I look at the shelves behind the cashier to pretend I'm looking for something when in actual fact I just can't keep eye contact! Another problem is that I recently suffered a phobia of swallowing food, I missed half a year off school because of my fragility which is why I failed my GCSEs and is why I am now at a ghetto school. My swallowing phobia gets triggered when I'm eating in public with my best friend and her friends, I also chew loud with my mouth open, which is why I'm only comfortable eating by myself, alone in my room. I would love to be one of those popular kids who go out to restaurants with friends and ahhh! I just can't be confident I hate looking at my life and how crap it is. awww i'm sorry i've gone on :l can anybody relate?