Post by michwolverine9 on Jul 15, 2009 0:46:16 GMT -5
All my life ive delt with alot of problems with other's thats lead to my shyness. In school i was always being made fun of by alot of people. if people wasnt calling me weird they were giving me a hard time about my weight ( mostly through elementary school.) alot of people at my school were very stuck up and when u would try to talk to one of them they would pretend like u were not there, i got this treatment by many of my classmates. Not only did my classmates ignore me but from time to time my mother ignores me. there are just some days that i do try and talk to her and she wont talk to me back. it makes me feel like no one really cares what i have to say.
I never had any social life after school. I really wasnt allowed to hang out with my friends or have friends over, cause my mom never let me. it was so bad i remember one day in school my friend joey was inviting people to go to kings island over the weekend. well when he comes to me he was like " i would ask u chuck but i already kno what your mom would say." i was pretty stuned when he made that comment, i looked at him and didnt have anything to say back cause i knew he was right.
meeting new people is very difficult for me cause i care about people's impression of me. i tend to be quite the entire time im around that person, personally it really sucks cause there not seeing the real me, ive been trying really hard to change this about myself but no matter what it still bothers me what they think of me. being in a big group of people is also difficult for me cause again i dont say much. i remember one time i went out to dinner with 5 other people. some i knew some i hardly knew. i was very quite the whole time i was there, but when i tried to talk one of the people there told me to be quite and she began to talk. for the rest of that night i didnt say nothing.
in my opinion the event in my life that still effects me to this day is what my sister ended up tellin me and actually meaning it. a few years ago my mom, sister and I were together. i really dont remember what we were talking about that lead to the event but my sister was like " now chuck dont take this the wrong way" then she looks at my mom and told her " i dont see why u had chuck for, he's just the mistake child." i didnt kno what to think after my sister said this, it hurt really bad knowing that your own sister thinks your a mistake, and its really hard to let this go.
this is pretty much everything. this to me is great finding this site cause i get to see some feed back from other's like myself and finding out ways to getting over shyness. ive said all i needed to say hope to hear from you!
I never had any social life after school. I really wasnt allowed to hang out with my friends or have friends over, cause my mom never let me. it was so bad i remember one day in school my friend joey was inviting people to go to kings island over the weekend. well when he comes to me he was like " i would ask u chuck but i already kno what your mom would say." i was pretty stuned when he made that comment, i looked at him and didnt have anything to say back cause i knew he was right.
meeting new people is very difficult for me cause i care about people's impression of me. i tend to be quite the entire time im around that person, personally it really sucks cause there not seeing the real me, ive been trying really hard to change this about myself but no matter what it still bothers me what they think of me. being in a big group of people is also difficult for me cause again i dont say much. i remember one time i went out to dinner with 5 other people. some i knew some i hardly knew. i was very quite the whole time i was there, but when i tried to talk one of the people there told me to be quite and she began to talk. for the rest of that night i didnt say nothing.
in my opinion the event in my life that still effects me to this day is what my sister ended up tellin me and actually meaning it. a few years ago my mom, sister and I were together. i really dont remember what we were talking about that lead to the event but my sister was like " now chuck dont take this the wrong way" then she looks at my mom and told her " i dont see why u had chuck for, he's just the mistake child." i didnt kno what to think after my sister said this, it hurt really bad knowing that your own sister thinks your a mistake, and its really hard to let this go.
this is pretty much everything. this to me is great finding this site cause i get to see some feed back from other's like myself and finding out ways to getting over shyness. ive said all i needed to say hope to hear from you!
