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Post by geekguy on Mar 8, 2010 8:34:19 GMT -5
K basically making this thread so I can try and set myself straight on a number of things. I think if I make a commitment to post in this thread each night I might actually improve on getting rid of old habits and such. These things are: 1) Getting my sleeping pattern back to normal - I often get distracted and forget about sleeping entirely, ending up awake at 4am which is unworkable for things like college and when I get a job I can't see that being acceptable either. I'm going to commit to going to bed for 1am minimum, but I'd like to bring it back to about 10:30pm so I can wake up at a normal hour. 2) Nail Biting - I have a bad habit of biting my nails, causing my fingernails to look less than average. What's worse is that oftentimes I'll nibble the skin on my fingertips too, especially if I'm nervous. I'd like to eliminate this habit completely so I'll try to keep track of how many times I bite my nails/fingers through the day and try to bring it down to 0. 3) Lip Biting - same as nail biting, bad habit >_> 4) Showering - I always shower in the morning but I get sidetracked at night and by the time I think to myself "I should go and have a shower" my parents are asleep and I'd rather not wake them up from the noise of the water so I'd like to get into the habit of showering straight after dinner every night 5) Pimple Anti-biotics - I have annoying acne that won't go away, but it seems to help when I actually remember to use my pills and cream regularly. But I forget to do that too so I'd like to also get into the habit of doing that immediately after I shower. So there we go. I'll probably do this daily in an effort to hold myself accountable, and hopefully I can turn these bad habits into good habits. As far as today goes, I bit my lip and nails a lot and got to sleep around 4am, and I've yet to go shower (9 30pm here, parents are asleep) but I'm gonna go shower right now before it gets much later, and use the pimple stuff. If anyone else wants to use this thread to keep themselves honest about correcting any bad habits they have feel free to
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 8, 2010 14:08:28 GMT -5
good on you, Geekguy ;D for your goals you have listed in your own self-improvement journey!!! Actually, Geekguy, I can relate to many items on your list. Here is what we have in common: staying up too late: I didn't go to sleep this morning until 7 am my time; woke up at 10:30 am and got up at noon: total sleep time: 3.5 hours (groan!) the bath/shower thing: because I live in a roominghouse (not my own apartment due to not enough $)...I too have a hard time getting myself to get a bath/shower at a decently early time. I went in for a short bath about 1 am my time (very late obviously!)!!! biting my lip at times: yes I have this problem at times, esp in the winter with the dry heat (I'm glad it's getting toward spring in Canada!) I do try to remember to put some kind of balm on them, but sometimes I forget lol. Other things I would like to improve: I am in the process now (since I dearly love music) of using my love for music toward exercise: I've begun dancing in my room to different dance type tunes like Duran Duran's tunes and other ones, etc. I am very light on my feet (I don't walk on my heels and stomp like other people where i live) I walk on my toes instead of my heels; even when I dance it's the same way; so I figure, as long as I do it at a very decent hour: such as afternoon and early evening, I shouldn't bother anyone with it. And augment this with more walking outside (since the weather is getting warmer and nicer); and yesterday, for the first time I didn't have to wear my boots, I wore my sneakers, lol. Trying to keep a watch on what I eat: when my appetite is ravenous (as I mentioned in the thread in the rant section called "I am thin, why can't I eat a broccoli"), portion size (it hasn't been lately, lol "I wonder why?!" - rhetorical of course, since I'm in love, lol)...is the bane of my eating life. I have to really try to rein in that appetite of mine if it comes back full force; and try to just have only 1 piece of toast instead of 2 (becuse bread seems to pack the pounds on my bod, lol!); eat more broccoli and carrots, drink more veggie juice, etc. eat more lean protein like tuna, salmon, and chicken breast, and lean beef cuts (when I can afford them, lol). Make sure I get enough antioxidants. Try to get some more of those red delicious apples, which are low in calories, have good fibre, and have plenty of antioxidants, etc. as well as other good fruits and veggies. Keep working on my speeches in the room; hopefully I'll get so good at it, that I'll develop enough confidence, should I ever have to do that in front of people (I may put more on this goal, and my theories about speech-making: i.e. hypotheses as to why people have trouble getting in front of an audience in the first place, besides shyness, or in addition to shyness, etc.-- in either this, or another thread on su). Try to work on the sound of my voice: i.e. when I'm really angry, it tends to rise: I gotta rein this in and make sure my voice does not raise itself in anger toward anyone (not that I talk to anyone much, or anyone talks to me, the former more so in my case: as I love to gab, lol). Othe weaknesses, which I cannot think of at the moment, I may add later. Thanks for introducing this thread idea, Geeekguy--and all the best to you in your own endeavors ;D!!! Take care ! ~audio
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Post by geekguy on Mar 8, 2010 21:06:07 GMT -5
Thanks for introducing this thread idea, Geeekguy--and all the best to you in your own endeavors ;D!!! You're welcome ;D all the best with your endeavors too.
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 8, 2010 21:45:09 GMT -5
Thanks, Geekguy ;D!!!
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Post by geekguy on Mar 11, 2010 11:41:04 GMT -5
time for an updaaaaaaaaaate!
So I've sort of not been succeeding on the showering straight after dinner or going to bed at a reasonable hour thing the past couple of nights, but I have been biting my nails and lip less. So that's a step in the right direction. I'm gonna go put my pimple stuff on in just a few minutes and go to bed (right now its 12:40 which is not as bad as normal).
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Post by geekguy on Mar 15, 2010 7:44:47 GMT -5
Alrighty another update time! Lip biting : much less than before Nail biting : I actually HAVE nails now . once they grow a bit more I'll start clippering them like a normal person :3 Sleeping : Still failing at going to bed at a good time but I'm back to around the 1am mark which is not too bad. Pimple Anti-biotics: successfulness Showering: most of the time I'm remembering. Yay for keeping myself honest I still have to consciously grab myself when I'm about to bite a nail or my lip though, hopefully after long enough I won't even have to think about it anymore.
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 16, 2010 13:29:42 GMT -5
;D a a BIG HIGH-FIVE and CONGRATS, Geekguy!!! You did well!!! My Update: I am still struggling with my self-improvement issues. I still don't get enough sleep, although I did give it the old "college-try" as it were; I went to bed at 10 the night before last, but didn't get to sleep until at least 1 am; woke up about 5; went back to sleep around 8; woke up about 11 or 12(?) i forget. I guess for me my cortisol levels are quite high, and staying up so late and long on the internet, it may take me some time to get myself into a better sleeping schedule. Last night I had some toast, and then turned everything off at about 1:30 am or so; woke up at 7 (not too bad); went back to sleep woke up at 10 am. It felt better to get more hours' sleep that's for sure! Eating: Well that's still variable. I still have no daytime appetite. Last night i had a nice supper and it was good. then i got hungry, like i said 12:30 am and had toast and peanut butter (well the carbs help me sleep lol). Exercise: that seems to be the easier part, I do get a walk out just about every day (except Sabbath of course); and yesterday I walked twice (had to take care of something imp re: this laptop) and went to Sobeys last night for some milk. Bought some broccoli on the way back from the computer store (where I bought this lap) so im looking forward to stir-frying/poaching, etc. that with some other veggies! Got some avocadoes also (very healthy monounsaturated fats in them). And last Friday (I forgot to put this when i originally posted this): i walked across the to the other side of Fredericton, to a store called "Giant Tiger" which is kind of like a department store, bargain prices, lol and they have the best price for Olive Oil of the stores that I can get to easier by walking...about 5 bucks a bottle; so I bought 2 and ill put it in my veggie stirfrys lol. so i was kinda proud i got over there and got them!!! proud in an accomplishment way, i mean. Other things: I didn't put this i don't think before, but i have to try to get myself another dentist as I have a really nasty upper right back tooth in the second from the last tooth position and when cold water hits it, I feel like I've been under the dentist's drill. I have been procrastinating trying to contact a new dentist (as my old dentist no longer accepts my health plan); as I said on another thread, I absolutely hate or dislike talking on the phone; I'd rather talk in person or by email; but I've yet to find a dentist office with an email contact address. Got my optometrist appointment though: i see my eye doctor on the 23rd (and he also has the means for his patients to acquire clip-on readers over their existing eyewear, so I thought that was cool!). Other goals i have: need to give this room a total cleaning, give it all an overhaul, so to speak, and do some loads of laundry. I love doing laundry, i just hate bumping into people in this roominghouse: it's the "shyness" or avoidance thing that makes me procrastinate in my need to do laundry. Blimey ! not as imp: try to get the Audacity program I downloaded to work for me so I can get my songs into an internet usable format so i can share them. prob more things i need to attend to, i may put more on this thread later.
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 17, 2010 10:51:31 GMT -5
update: about the same lol. Last night went to bed at 10 pm, but still couldn't sleep. was still awake 2 am (no internet, it dropped off about 6 or 7 pm last nite) couldn't sleep; got up had a few strawberries a banana and some milk and decided to read "woman's world" magazine, some light reading might help me to relax (actually i have a lot on my mind, a lot of worries, etc. and stress so prob why i can't sleep either heh)...i read until about 3:15 or so, then turned the light off. I don't know when i got to sleep. still tossed and turned some. woke up around 10 am got up a little after that 10:30 perhaps? i forget. my internet came on afterward around that time. and my telephone service finally got hooked up at 11:49 am today. i got an email from our local telephone provider telling me im finally hooked up (been trying to get ph service--so sweetheart and i can talk!--for about a week. It was supposed to be on last night, but it wasn't). anyways, nothing else to report except still struggling to get a daytime appetite. now i know the thing about eating late at night. but even if i don't eat late at night, i still don't have a daytime appy. for me i think it's stress and worry; and i seem to worry more in the daytime, the sleeplessness at night notwithstanding . note: i made brekkiie about 11 or so...2 toast, tea, and 4 strips of bacon (turkey cuz i love turkey)...it's still sitting there on my table untouched.) maybe ill try after this thing is posted, but still no appy tho. might have to force it. at least when i eat i can say for the most part im eating healthy foods. so that's a step in the right direction. just gotta get on the ball and get more exercise. i danced for a little while yesterday to duran duran lol again for 19 minutes in my room here, then got winded so had to sit down. went out last night to the superstore to use the payphone to ask the ph co about when my ph was going to be hooked up; bought a few grocery items after i made the call. that's it for now .
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 18, 2010 15:14:03 GMT -5
update again lol: bath/shower: got one in starting at 9:45 pm last night so that was earlier than the 1 am one i cited in an earlier post. laundry: got 1 load of laundry washed/dried at a decent hour: started the wash around 5(?) pm; put it in the dryer after 6 or 6:30; went for an hour's walk for exercise while the clothes dried; came back, got them out; brought them upstairs. (Home eta: 7:40 pm) bed: changed the bedclothes - put clean sheets on the bed after i got the laundry out of the dryer (after my walk). food: last night made kraft dinner (well now they have whole wheat so i buy that so im not too bad there lol)--and tonight for the weekend i'll be making chicken with a vegetable stirfry (broccoli, carrots, onions, garlic, spices). So i'll be getting in some healthy foods again. and im eating mostly healthy: whole wheat toast, bananas, strawberries, veggie juice, avocado, etc.) my one treat lately (besides the fruit) is chocolate milk lol. love choc moo juice heh. now having a banana and choc milk for a "snack" lol. Exercise: as alluded to earlier re: the 1-hr walk....I'm making an effort to get in at least half hour to 1 full hour of evening straight walking (no stopping til i get back home again); not counting the usual trip(s) to either the library (less often now that i have home internet ); king's place (minimall--on the way to library--which has a pharmacy); grocery stores Victory Meat Market; Atlantic Superstore, and Sobeys. music: working on songs, a u, working on a song (or poem) someone else wrote/sent me so i can play/sing it for him (not trad man, another person). lips: still using a sort of "balm" staying awake/sleep: still difficult. Up til 3-4 am this morning. finally prob passed out thru sleep deprivation; woke up 10 or 10:30 am very groggy; got up anyway, lol. i think that's everything i needed to update lol in regard to personal or self improvements . Oh just one more thing: might be imp, might not be....this is just my opinion, might not be worth much: i find when i do stuff (like yesterday), i seem to do more than what i thought I was going to do, like a "momentum" sort of set in; and my thought was...prob similar to Newton's laws of motion/inertia, etc. "a body at rest...stays at rest" (op. cit) or words to that effect...anyway, i was thinking that when i reviewed my post a few mins ago. I am very goal oriented and usually go after what I want, to a certain extent...but only if I feel reasonably sure (more than 50% sure) I will obtain it. I went after Trad man (and of course, there, time will tell lol) cuz i was interested in him lol. But getting back to the Newtonian thing: and, conversely, when I don't do a lot in the line of physical exercise or "work" [defined in physics as simply as "taking out the garbage": to move any object any distance]...i tend to just want to haha 'lay down', lol. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conservation_of_momentum#Conservation_of_linear_momentumtranslation: lazy heh (i mean me heh heh
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 18, 2010 17:05:14 GMT -5
yay i seem to have gotten my appy back (of course there is both a pos and a neg side to this - have to keep a watch on it so i don't gain too much weight lol) I heated up Kraft dinner (whole wheat--not white pasta--now as a choice!) and just polished the whole bowl off in 2 mins flat!!! yeah, i can really eat ;D when i have the appy, lol!!!). had some veggie juice with it. I think i might have a few strawberries to polish it all off (still a little peckish -appy hungry i mean heh).
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 18, 2010 22:54:20 GMT -5
update: well i went out tonight for a walk, but it wasn't as long as the other walks. my cortisol levels are shot and i am bloody fatigued. so i started out about 7:15; walked til about 8:15; went to Victory i8:22 pm , got chicken and chocolate milk; outside store: 8:31 brought those home 8:39 pm - 8 minutes in putting them away, plus put 2 chicken legs in microwave to cook, etc.; 8:47 pm - out the door and down the road to Sobeys 5-10 min walk--got veggie juice, margarine, mayonnaise or salad dressing (for tuna sandwiches); can of mixed nuts on sale for a dollar; some potato chips (low cortisol levels made me fatigued/craving salt massively!!!); came home again eta 9:30? forget time lol. Turned chicken over in mic cooked them for a few more mins; put other purchases away; changed my clothes; heated up wieners in kitchen microwave (since still cooking chicken legs in my mic!); had them with a slice of bread and some veggie juice; etc. ate a few mixed nuts; used washroom; back in again; changed to nightclothes; climbed under 1 blanket; ate some chips; browsed/made posts on su; listened to duran duran; answered/wrote pms on su; i think that's all i did. im crashing from the fatigue of low cortisol levels. my legs (calves) are hurting, my feet blisters are added to existing blisters lol. "among yous be it!" --something my maternal grandmother would say when she was retiring for the night and wanted to sleep, lol her family was from the Miramichi here in New Brunswick (world famous for salmon sorry just saying, im not trying to spam, lol hehehe ;D !!!). i tried to chat on here, but i guess everyone's either busy or laying down :)lol. oh and i forgot to say this...too fatigued to do the veggies, tomorrow ill have to cut them up and stir fry them with the olive oil. got stuck in the house addicted to the internet, lol so got my walk in a little late, heh.
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 20, 2010 12:58:19 GMT -5
update: Friday, March 19, 2010 Had my long walk started 6:15 back home 7:30. my usual route along the Fredericton walking trails, even interspersed with a few little seconds of jogging, but i mostly walked. hoping get out this evening for a little twilight walk. goal: if i can manage to put together the funds (savings), to purchase a bicycle and helmet; and really cruise around the walking trails (when i don't feel like walking). I haven't had a bike in years, and i think i would find it very enjoyable if i can buy one and get back into riding. i really do like the outdoors, at least at this time of year--before the humidexes start coming and making me tired (fatigued) from that type of heat. supper: last night, had some of those vegetables i cooked. tonight: vegetables and chicken later when im hungry for it. still eating as healthy as finances permit. had strawberries and a banana and choc milk for an evening snack, earlier had a few mixed nuts (peanuts, cashews and almonds). today: just studying til sunset. hoping to go for my walk later on this evening. *ultra worried about Trad; haven't heard from him since Friday just a text message he was supposed to call me, but haven't heard from him...my "imagination" (OCD worries/hypervigilance) is running wild/going into overdrive!*
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Post by outgoingbutshy on Mar 22, 2010 14:27:30 GMT -5
update: March 22, 2010 well i didn't go for a walk for the last 3 days very stiff and sore lately. i got my appetite back so im eating more regularly and not too little. i am trying with difficulty not to overeat, but it is hard, esp since Trad is going through some stuff, and i guess he's not able to call me and i get a little (actually a lot) lonely . I'm concentrating now on working on music. I just finished the general outline musically with the guitar and singing of that latest posting "ashes" in the creative thread. I think it is a reasonable facsimile of the Nightwish style (tho i don't have an electric at the moment). I've even outlined here what verses the lady singer would sing and what verses the guy(s) would sing lol. too tired really to do anything else. tomorrow's my optometrist appointment; so in a few days to a week after this, I should have a better working pair of glasses to see up close with lol. yeah im getting owld heh . maybe tomorrow the soreness (legs) will go away; and perhaps after the eye appoinement, or later, i might try another exercise walk along Fredericton's many trails that overlook the Saint John river...very picturesque in the sunshine: lots of nice scenery to feast my eyes on while my ears feast on the zune tunes lol. heh "zune tunes ;D" - lame but still rhymes, lol.
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