Post by vikes09 on Sept 2, 2010 16:39:41 GMT -5
I went on a date last night with a girl I met off of an online dating site. I honestly wasn't expecting much, but wow was I in for a surprise. This girl was a straight up 10 on the 1-10 scale in looks and in personality. I couldn't believe I was even on a date with her at first. Trouble is, my shyness and lack of confidence completely made her lose interest in me. I use online dating as a means to take baby steps to try and improve my skills with talking to girls, and I've got it down pretty well, I'm just having a lot of trouble translating that into real life. There is nothing worse than seeing a beautiful girl who upon seeing you has her eyes light up like she is glad to be there. But then once she talks to you she loses all interest.
I'm so disgusted with myself today that I want to cry. I have absolutely no reason to be shy and lack confidence. I'm intelligent, a college graduate, have my own place, work a full time job and am a great looking guy. Yet here I am completely paralyzed by my own shyness and insecurity. I have so much more to offer the world and I just cannot get out of my own way. I have a great sense of humor and am truly a good guy but nobody ever gets to find that out because I can't come out of my shell. Some days I just want to scream. I didn't ask to be born like this, I've tried and tried and tried for 26 years to overcome this and nothing I seem to do ever works. It is truly mind boggling and awful when you know exactly what to say in a certain situation, and you know it will get a good response, yet you still cannot bring yourself to say it! That is so ridiculous I don't even know how to explain it. I am so mentally beat down at this point and my self esteem is so incredibly low right now I don't think it can get any lower. So I guess that's 1 positive lol
One other thing I'm sick of hearing people say is "why don't you talk more" It absolutely makes my blood boil when I hear that. I just want to scream out at them "I want to talk more, I want to do it more than anything else in the world, but for some reason that I have yet to figure out, I can't" Everyone thinks they have you figured out as being the shy guy but they really don't know a thing about you.
Ok, rant over. Man that felt good
I'm so disgusted with myself today that I want to cry. I have absolutely no reason to be shy and lack confidence. I'm intelligent, a college graduate, have my own place, work a full time job and am a great looking guy. Yet here I am completely paralyzed by my own shyness and insecurity. I have so much more to offer the world and I just cannot get out of my own way. I have a great sense of humor and am truly a good guy but nobody ever gets to find that out because I can't come out of my shell. Some days I just want to scream. I didn't ask to be born like this, I've tried and tried and tried for 26 years to overcome this and nothing I seem to do ever works. It is truly mind boggling and awful when you know exactly what to say in a certain situation, and you know it will get a good response, yet you still cannot bring yourself to say it! That is so ridiculous I don't even know how to explain it. I am so mentally beat down at this point and my self esteem is so incredibly low right now I don't think it can get any lower. So I guess that's 1 positive lol
One other thing I'm sick of hearing people say is "why don't you talk more" It absolutely makes my blood boil when I hear that. I just want to scream out at them "I want to talk more, I want to do it more than anything else in the world, but for some reason that I have yet to figure out, I can't" Everyone thinks they have you figured out as being the shy guy but they really don't know a thing about you.
Ok, rant over. Man that felt good