Post by medico on Dec 13, 2011 15:32:27 GMT -5
Hello everyone, My name is Jack Lewis and I'm 13 from the UK. My shy story is very strange so I'm just gonna dive in and start from the beginning.
Since I was very young I've always been "the shy one", because I have a twin. It's not a comment people insult me with though. Anyway, I don't know why I'm shy. My whole family is confident and well-spoken. So it's not from how I was brought up. Just fate I suppose. So throughout Primary school I was always quiet. But not a loner, people like me because I'm nice and stuff. Anyway, I always dreaded plays, drama and short talks in school. Hence I now hate it when my teachers say the word "talk" or "plan a short" . So by this point (Primary 7) I have loads of memories of the scariest moments in my life regarding short talks and stuff, which some are quite humorous.
Example- Xmas is coming up- My teacher says that "once you've completed your work you can up here and help me with something." So I do, along with other people. I then find out we have to read out stuff at the xmas church service, on front of the whole school! So for the following weeks I'm having the trauma of my life learning this thing. But then, a day before the service my Mum gives me and my brother this last short day off. ;D (Ironically, I'm writing this on the same month when this actually happened 2 years ago.)
Back to the topic. Still so shy, I'm now in Secondary School.
And this is were interesting things begin to happen. During my time in S1, I started noticing how people were becoming depressed due to economcal crisis and stuff. So I think, I'm so shy and scared of people. But inside I'm not. So a make a vow, a promise.( Thats not been completed yet ). A promise to save my family from this credit crunch/economical crisis we're living. I'm about 12 at this point. Imagine a 12yr old promising that! I'm not sure about this yet, but I ask myself if I'm mad enough to try and do this because I'm shy? Interesting.
Below I will start to talk about the things I've tried and failed to do and things I'm doing.
1) I can't remember how I thought to do this but, I started writing a realistic book based on the video game"Nazi Zombies". I felt I started it very well, but then I tried to obtain rights from the people who made the game, no reply. And I also Asked myself how I'd get this published in the future. I'd have to tell someone. My family. A proffesional. Dunno. But anyway, too shy for me. I backed down.
2) Secondly, I tried to use limited 3D modelling skills and a program to make a game based on 20th Century Foxs "Avp" franchise. This didn't work as I'd have to get rights from Fox and stuff+ I no proffesional when it comes to 3d modeling. I backed down.
3) 3rd. I planned to sell comics that didn't exist at the time online using make your website tools. This died quickly when I found it too hard to even start actually making products. I backed down.(But this idea proves useful later in life VERY.)
Being shy and doing all this when someone isn't looking has been a pain as well.
4) The 4th shot. End of S1, summer begins. My Dad has to work in Austrailia to get enough money to for our house.(Parents divorced, but I love and see them equally). So at my Dads house a few days before he leaves. In the shower I decide to write a script for the movie Avp3. A film franchise made and owned by 20th Century Fox. I spent the whole of summer, time in Spain and alot of S2 writing that script. Then a got enough courage to ask(e-mail) a fellow Avp fan if he could help me with it. And help me get it to 20th Century Fox. He responded by telling me the realistic side of things. So I backed down. And since I spent along time on that, plus on the things I stated earlier. I sort of when a bit mad inside saying how I didn't deserve this. Especially how I'd tried so hard to help my family.
Anyway, since after the first girl I kinda liked turned into a ned of sorts and I'm shy I decided not to fancy anyone for the rest of my whole life. But then, half way through S1 I found myself in a class with the nicest, kindest, thougtfulest, sweetest, confident, hard-working, AMAZING girl in the world! I won't name her in case its rude. Since almost everyone in my school swear all time, say things only adults should, doing things only adults should, misbehave and don't bother learing I thought impossible to find someone like me. But I geuss I'm kind and behaved because I'm shy. Anyway, this girl is so amazing. I mean people in my school would think love relationships at a really young age is normal. But I think you should start thinking about girlfriends/boyfriends when your'e about 16 and up. I may be 13, but I love her because I'm shy and worried that she may become a bad person becaue of all the "popular" people who are allowed (by confidence) to form relationships, I'm not saying I'm perfect. But there are some really bad people out there. So anyway, whilst trying to save my family, I now start having to worrying about my social future which for the past 2 years I've been forgeting about.
5) I wrote, what I think is very good, a story that I was going to draw and sell via my website. (By the way, I'm quite at pro printing, selling, webmaking, so everything looks good.) Then I officially decided to ask someone else to be the penciller for my comics, so I e-mailed someone he I thought would interested and talented enough. The girl I like. In art about 4weeks ago she replied. Since no one knows I'm doing this comic thing I asked her in the e-mail not to see me in public(person) about it. But then in Art when I wasn't distracteed she, out of nowhere, asked about the story. I told her I'd reply on the computer. After that I went and sat on my chair and started shaking and feeling my very fast heart beat. I'm shy, its allowed. 3 weeks later here I am today, me and her have had at least two convos on hotmail and facebook regarding the comics and stuff. Annoying thing is she hasn't had any free time to talk in 3weeks!
So thats all for now. I feel so weird for trying to help my family in a such weird way. And I'm only 13! Wonder if its got anything to with my Shyness. Also, about the girl I like. I don't like her the way a modern day scaffy neddy boy likes a girl. For the looks and just for the sake of it. I like the way matura adults do. I want to spent time with her, know, do normal things together. I at least want to be her friend so I can see her become a succseful young adult, and to see her smile. I'm hoping these comics will bring us closer, because we're not even friends Yet. We just know each other from school.
Is every above what being shy does to a person? I like it how its made me a nice person.
Since I was very young I've always been "the shy one", because I have a twin. It's not a comment people insult me with though. Anyway, I don't know why I'm shy. My whole family is confident and well-spoken. So it's not from how I was brought up. Just fate I suppose. So throughout Primary school I was always quiet. But not a loner, people like me because I'm nice and stuff. Anyway, I always dreaded plays, drama and short talks in school. Hence I now hate it when my teachers say the word "talk" or "plan a short" . So by this point (Primary 7) I have loads of memories of the scariest moments in my life regarding short talks and stuff, which some are quite humorous.
Example- Xmas is coming up- My teacher says that "once you've completed your work you can up here and help me with something." So I do, along with other people. I then find out we have to read out stuff at the xmas church service, on front of the whole school! So for the following weeks I'm having the trauma of my life learning this thing. But then, a day before the service my Mum gives me and my brother this last short day off. ;D (Ironically, I'm writing this on the same month when this actually happened 2 years ago.)
Back to the topic. Still so shy, I'm now in Secondary School.
And this is were interesting things begin to happen. During my time in S1, I started noticing how people were becoming depressed due to economcal crisis and stuff. So I think, I'm so shy and scared of people. But inside I'm not. So a make a vow, a promise.( Thats not been completed yet ). A promise to save my family from this credit crunch/economical crisis we're living. I'm about 12 at this point. Imagine a 12yr old promising that! I'm not sure about this yet, but I ask myself if I'm mad enough to try and do this because I'm shy? Interesting.Below I will start to talk about the things I've tried and failed to do and things I'm doing.
1) I can't remember how I thought to do this but, I started writing a realistic book based on the video game"Nazi Zombies". I felt I started it very well, but then I tried to obtain rights from the people who made the game, no reply. And I also Asked myself how I'd get this published in the future. I'd have to tell someone. My family. A proffesional. Dunno. But anyway, too shy for me. I backed down.
2) Secondly, I tried to use limited 3D modelling skills and a program to make a game based on 20th Century Foxs "Avp" franchise. This didn't work as I'd have to get rights from Fox and stuff+ I no proffesional when it comes to 3d modeling. I backed down.
3) 3rd. I planned to sell comics that didn't exist at the time online using make your website tools. This died quickly when I found it too hard to even start actually making products. I backed down.(But this idea proves useful later in life VERY.)
Being shy and doing all this when someone isn't looking has been a pain as well.
4) The 4th shot. End of S1, summer begins. My Dad has to work in Austrailia to get enough money to for our house.(Parents divorced, but I love and see them equally). So at my Dads house a few days before he leaves. In the shower I decide to write a script for the movie Avp3. A film franchise made and owned by 20th Century Fox. I spent the whole of summer, time in Spain and alot of S2 writing that script. Then a got enough courage to ask(e-mail) a fellow Avp fan if he could help me with it. And help me get it to 20th Century Fox. He responded by telling me the realistic side of things. So I backed down. And since I spent along time on that, plus on the things I stated earlier. I sort of when a bit mad inside saying how I didn't deserve this. Especially how I'd tried so hard to help my family.
Anyway, since after the first girl I kinda liked turned into a ned of sorts and I'm shy I decided not to fancy anyone for the rest of my whole life. But then, half way through S1 I found myself in a class with the nicest, kindest, thougtfulest, sweetest, confident, hard-working, AMAZING girl in the world! I won't name her in case its rude. Since almost everyone in my school swear all time, say things only adults should, doing things only adults should, misbehave and don't bother learing I thought impossible to find someone like me. But I geuss I'm kind and behaved because I'm shy. Anyway, this girl is so amazing. I mean people in my school would think love relationships at a really young age is normal. But I think you should start thinking about girlfriends/boyfriends when your'e about 16 and up. I may be 13, but I love her because I'm shy and worried that she may become a bad person becaue of all the "popular" people who are allowed (by confidence) to form relationships, I'm not saying I'm perfect. But there are some really bad people out there. So anyway, whilst trying to save my family, I now start having to worrying about my social future which for the past 2 years I've been forgeting about.
5) I wrote, what I think is very good, a story that I was going to draw and sell via my website. (By the way, I'm quite at pro printing, selling, webmaking, so everything looks good.) Then I officially decided to ask someone else to be the penciller for my comics, so I e-mailed someone he I thought would interested and talented enough. The girl I like. In art about 4weeks ago she replied. Since no one knows I'm doing this comic thing I asked her in the e-mail not to see me in public(person) about it. But then in Art when I wasn't distracteed she, out of nowhere, asked about the story. I told her I'd reply on the computer. After that I went and sat on my chair and started shaking and feeling my very fast heart beat. I'm shy, its allowed. 3 weeks later here I am today, me and her have had at least two convos on hotmail and facebook regarding the comics and stuff. Annoying thing is she hasn't had any free time to talk in 3weeks!
So thats all for now. I feel so weird for trying to help my family in a such weird way. And I'm only 13! Wonder if its got anything to with my Shyness. Also, about the girl I like. I don't like her the way a modern day scaffy neddy boy likes a girl. For the looks and just for the sake of it. I like the way matura adults do. I want to spent time with her, know, do normal things together. I at least want to be her friend so I can see her become a succseful young adult, and to see her smile. I'm hoping these comics will bring us closer, because we're not even friends Yet. We just know each other from school.
Is every above what being shy does to a person? I like it how its made me a nice person.
and love her so much. I'm actually gonna follow that though. Anyway we didn't speak for a week and then, about a few minutes before I post this message, she says that she still needs to see if she's busy during the Feb weekend. The meeting time she suggested. So fingers crossed.