Post by littlemissreverie on Aug 28, 2012 3:30:44 GMT -5
Hello Everyone! I just Found SU and have decided that sharing might help with my all over shyness and social anxiety. So lets begin shall we?
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Day 1 )
Today began and ended as every day has for the last I don't even know how many months. I opened my eyes went through the same process I did every morning. I focused my thoughts on the temperature of the attic in which I dwelled. Deciding if I had to get up, or if i could slip away to do the only useful thing i ever did anymore- dream. The air was thick with heat, it felt like the inside of a car left out in the sun all day. I idly wondered if one day I might one day die from the heat that hung thick and lazy in my air, a summary perhaps, of how stifled my life had become. I got up and moved aside the thick curtains covering my windows. As I squinted and shielded my eyes from the sudden burst of vivid sunlight I thought of how it had all gotten to this, how my life had suddenly stopped.
It began a year ago. No, I corrected myself as I exerted considerable effort to dislodge my old window lock, it took root many years before that, but last year was when it began in ernest, I thought as I opened my window as far as it would go and stood blinking down at the over grown tangle of a garden below.
It had been summer, a little over a year from this morning. I had just graduated high school and was full of expectation. I was bound for succes, everyone said so, even I thought that I had finally found my sea legs in this life and was eager to take my first steps. The eagerness was weighted with a bittersweet feeling thought, I had just gotten of the plane that took me away from everything I knew and loved, my family, my little island in the sea, the friends that I had had such trouble in getting and loved more then any others. I was leaving the nursery pong and swimming out to sea, it was daunting. And, I would all to soon come to realize it was a terrible mistake.
Now I really meant to write more this time but I'm so tired I can't see the keyboard. I'll continue tomorrow. Good Night Dear Reader, May the stars sing sweetly above you as you dream <3
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Day 1 )
Today began and ended as every day has for the last I don't even know how many months. I opened my eyes went through the same process I did every morning. I focused my thoughts on the temperature of the attic in which I dwelled. Deciding if I had to get up, or if i could slip away to do the only useful thing i ever did anymore- dream. The air was thick with heat, it felt like the inside of a car left out in the sun all day. I idly wondered if one day I might one day die from the heat that hung thick and lazy in my air, a summary perhaps, of how stifled my life had become. I got up and moved aside the thick curtains covering my windows. As I squinted and shielded my eyes from the sudden burst of vivid sunlight I thought of how it had all gotten to this, how my life had suddenly stopped.
It began a year ago. No, I corrected myself as I exerted considerable effort to dislodge my old window lock, it took root many years before that, but last year was when it began in ernest, I thought as I opened my window as far as it would go and stood blinking down at the over grown tangle of a garden below.
It had been summer, a little over a year from this morning. I had just graduated high school and was full of expectation. I was bound for succes, everyone said so, even I thought that I had finally found my sea legs in this life and was eager to take my first steps. The eagerness was weighted with a bittersweet feeling thought, I had just gotten of the plane that took me away from everything I knew and loved, my family, my little island in the sea, the friends that I had had such trouble in getting and loved more then any others. I was leaving the nursery pong and swimming out to sea, it was daunting. And, I would all to soon come to realize it was a terrible mistake.
Now I really meant to write more this time but I'm so tired I can't see the keyboard. I'll continue tomorrow. Good Night Dear Reader, May the stars sing sweetly above you as you dream <3