My rambles... Jan 27, 2013 21:13:56 GMT -5
Post by Crashtastic on Jan 27, 2013 21:13:56 GMT -5
You are absolutely right! I'm back to focusing on myself. It's hard to do. I know it's the right thing, but I stray from it so easily. It's scary for some reason. I guess I feel like I spent so much time being by myself, I'm afraid I'll stay that way. I've never spent much of my adult life with that focus. That's were it counts. It's just been proved to me again that in order to have the life that I want I have to address the things that need to be done for myself. I'm getting there slowly.
I have to remember that I can't skip ahead!
It may be lonely but I'd rather be alone than with someone in a bad relationship.
My daughter ran off with some guy she dated in high school. I tried to get her to wait 6 months and get to know him again. She hadn't been around him in 10 years.
She didn't listen and snuck off and married him 10 days later. She quickly got pregnant on purpose.
It's been over a year later and she found out her "soulmate" was a deadbeat who won't work a steady job, has a serious drug addiction (bath salts) and has his mother pay his way in life including his child support for the 2 other kids. Now she feels trapped and stuck with him as she has a little baby to take care of.
It breaks my heart to see her wasting her life on these pathetic bums who aren't good enough to sniff her farts.
You can never go wrong by keeping your standards high.
When you put it that way, I guess I'm kinda fortunate that some of my relationships didn't work out. Last long term relationship was with a guy who smoked pot every friggen day. He had a job and everything but of course that was something that worried the crap out of me. Soo much of his money went into weed. All of it is so obvious it fascinates me. If I was someone else in some of the relationships I've been in I'd be like run! Its so different when its me, I'm get blind. Sorry for anyone who reads my post and goes god is this all she talks about! lol I need a record somewhere that I can look back I guess and I don't know I like that there is someone somewhere that knows