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Post by theinfiniteabyss84 on Nov 21, 2005 21:34:17 GMT -5
I feel like such a loser. Right now my cousin, who is younger than me, is here with her boyfriend. And apparently they are going to go to his parents for Thanksgiving. I am on the computer instead of talking is because I am doing "homework". And at Thanksgiving my other cousin with her boyfriend is going to be there. And this cousin is younger than me also, by a few months. I think my mom knows I am upset also, she peered into the room to see if I was ok. Its just as well. I would probably bore them to death with my sparkling personality and my outstanding ability to engage in great conversations. I just want to go into my room, turn the music extremely loud and cry. ~I.A.  |
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Post by Buzzz on Nov 21, 2005 22:12:18 GMT -5
I know, it sucks...
My family has had a rash of weddings recently- my dad, stepbrother, stepsister, three of my cousins...I feel like this is happening solely to rub their wonderful lives in my face.
The worst part of it is that I can't feel happy for them. They deserve their happiness, and I know they deserve it, but I can't get over the fact that I'm unhappy and lonely long enough to be glad they're not.
I just hope I don't appear too sullen at Thanksgiving dinner, where many of them will be.
I'm sorry. I have no advice for you. If I did, I'd be following it right now.
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Post by ace000 on Nov 21, 2005 22:17:03 GMT -5
So srry. I hope you feel better even a tiny bit after reading all the posts you're going to get though ;D
You're sad because you dont have a boyfriend and you're shy. Well I bet Im even worse off, and so are a lot of people. Ive never had a girlfriend or a girl friend or any type of close friend of any gender whatsoever.
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Post by theinfiniteabyss84 on Nov 21, 2005 22:38:28 GMT -5
I never had a boyfriend, the only time I had guys for friends was senior year in high school back in 2002, since I am to afraid to be talk to guys. I have been like that lately. At work I just feel like I am wandering aimlessly, depressed. I don't care if people think I look sullen, let them, I could care less. Hooray for the holidays and being alone. ~I.A.  |
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Post by reddragon on Nov 22, 2005 0:16:31 GMT -5
I wish I could say something to help but I can't. I'm in the same fix all alone on the holidays. With no one, some days I wonder if I were to die just how long it would take to find the body as I have no friends to even check on me. All I can say is do something don't end up like me, you will regret it all your life. |
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Post by wagnerr on Nov 22, 2005 0:21:22 GMT -5
I never had a boyfriend, the only time I had guys for friends was senior year in high school back in 2002, since I am to afraid to be talk to guys. I have been like that lately. At work I just feel like I am wandering aimlessly, depressed. I don't care if people think I look sullen, let them, I could care less. Hooray for the holidays and being alone. ~I.A. Young lady, you are to stop feeling like that this very minute!!!!   Come on, IA, you have a great personality!!!  You're one of the sweetest, nicest people here. And you always have a funny, bouncy posting style about you. Always cheers me up to see you online and posting. Anyway, i know you're in Chicago, but i'll throw a few kisses up your way.  And smilies too. Oh, one more kiss because i feel like it. |
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Post by ace000 on Nov 22, 2005 0:34:50 GMT -5
Hmm... sounds like you are sort of depressed. I hate that feeling. Especially if it's because of loneliness. And at least it sounds like you have family to spend the holidays with and caring parents.
Dont worry it will pass tomorrow...or at least the next time something good happens to you
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Post by allen on Nov 22, 2005 0:39:09 GMT -5
The holidays are always the worst time of the year...for a lot of people...not just us shybies. I am basically counting down the days until January 1st when all this holiday crap is over with. If there's something to be thankful for this season IA, its that you seem to have a lot going for you, you seem like a great person and your still very young. I am spending the holidays with my cousin and his fiance. Not too bad, until I realize that I first started struggling with my shyness/depression around the time he was born.....I remember being depressed about my situation at his baptism...now here is is 21 years later and I've been on a neverending slide downhill ever since...and he's living a life that I can only dream of.
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Post by Buzzz on Nov 22, 2005 0:47:50 GMT -5
Have you ever been depressed before? |
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Post by theinfiniteabyss84 on Nov 22, 2005 1:09:32 GMT -5
Have you ever been depressed before? I don't think he has ~I.A.  |
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Post by ASolitarySoul on Nov 22, 2005 1:15:48 GMT -5
The holidays are always the worst time of the year...for a lot of people...not just us shybies. I am basically counting down the days until January 1st when all this holiday crap is over with. If there's something to be thankful for this season IA, its that you seem to have a lot going for you, you seem like a great person and your still very young. I am spending the holidays with my cousin and his fiance. Not too bad, until I realize that I first started struggling with my shyness/depression around the time he was born.....I remember being depressed about my situation at his baptism...now here is is 21 years later and I've been on a neverending slide downhill ever since...and he's living a life that I can only dream of. When the holidays come and go, I’ll be spending them in the same place that I’ve spent them for the past 4 years: Right here - alone. It doesn’t matter - I don’t miss the holidays - they mean nothing to me. I would prefer to spend them this way than any other - that is my preference. I’ll probably be posting in here again on Christmas eve. I don’t dream of anyone else’s life - it’s pointless to do that. Solitary Soul Image Gallery -> www.silentshadowsrise.com/All about me -> users3.ev1.net/~solitarysoul/-------------------------------------------------------- |
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Post by wagnerr on Nov 22, 2005 1:25:09 GMT -5
Have you ever been depressed before? Yes i have. Often in fact. I was trying to cheer up IA. |
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Post by ASolitarySoul on Nov 22, 2005 1:27:04 GMT -5
I feel like such a loser. Right now my cousin, who is younger than me, is here with her boyfriend. And apparently they are going to go to his parents for Thanksgiving. I am on the computer instead of talking is because I am doing "homework". And at Thanksgiving my other cousin with her boyfriend is going to be there. And this cousin is younger than me also, by a few months. I think my mom knows I am upset also, she peered into the room to see if I was ok. Its just as well. I would probably bore them to death with my sparkling personality and my outstanding ability to engage in great conversations. I just want to go into my room, turn the music extremely loud and cry. ~I.A. If it makes you feel any better, I’ve got SECOND cousins who have married, had kids, and divorced (in a few cases). I have a niece, along with five nephews. My niece married over 20 years ago (when she was 15), and has a 20 yo son. Three of my nephews have married, one of them had 2 kids with his first wife, divorced, and has 2 MORE kids with his second wife. Personally, I’d rather be alone than to have had a life like that. I’d bet good money that most of the shy guys in this forum would JUMP at the chance to have you for a girlfriend - and probably for more. Solitary Soul Image Gallery -> www.silentshadowsrise.com/All about me -> users3.ev1.net/~solitarysoul/-------------------------------------------------------- |
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Post by Bodhi on Nov 22, 2005 11:06:31 GMT -5
I feel like such a loser. Right now my cousin, who is younger than me, is here with her boyfriend. And apparently they are going to go to his parents for Thanksgiving. I am on the computer instead of talking is because I am doing "homework". And at Thanksgiving my other cousin with her boyfriend is going to be there. And this cousin is younger than me also, by a few months. I think my mom knows I am upset also, she peered into the room to see if I was ok. Its just as well. I would probably bore them to death with my sparkling personality and my outstanding ability to engage in great conversations. I just want to go into my room, turn the music extremely loud and cry. ~I.A. I've felt this way many times, seeing everyone around me having significant others and I'm still all alone with little chance of ever finding someone. I think for me thats just the way it is, my fate in life. But I know for you it isn't, I know you will find someone because I know you already have. He is a lucky man and I hope treats you very well. |
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Post by marcus on Nov 22, 2005 13:44:43 GMT -5
Och poor dab, I'm sorry...  Hope you're feeling a little better today - I know there's nothing worse than younger family members rubbing your nose in their fabulous social lives to make you feel really flat and awful. High school ended in 2002? Well, that puts you 4 years younger than me! It's really only this year I've had the courage to speak to the opposite sex face to face with any regularity - I'm sure you'll beat me, you've certainly got the looks for it |
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You're one of the sweetest, nicest people here. 
Hope you're feeling a little better today - I know there's nothing worse than younger family members rubbing your nose in their fabulous social lives to make you feel really flat and awful.