Post by Reflection on Apr 6, 2004 1:03:37 GMT -5
I am almost positive that this guy in one of my classes has a crush on me; everyone has been telling me so, and he approaches me after class to talk to me even though we don't really know each other.
Anyway, we're in the same club together but don't really talk during meetings because he sits by his frat brothers. After class today, he said I should come to some of the stuff the club is sponsoring, which I'm planning to do, if I can get someone to come with me. I don't want to go alone and look like I have no friends. Ugh, I hate how insecure guys make me feel sometimes! I mean, normally I wouldn't give a flying poodle about going to a lecture alone but now that my crush is in the picture and will probably go, too, I feel awkward. Especially because he's ALWAYS with someone else, usually a couple of his frat brothers. Do you know how intimidating it is for me, a huge nerd, to be talking to this perfect guy who's in a frat who's always surrounded by frat guys!!!!
Also, one of the lectures that's being offered sounds really boring and it's about something I already know plenty about. So going would be a huge waste of time. But then again, if he's there and we wind up talking, maybe it wouldn't be. However, I don't wanna turn into one of those pathetic girls that only do things because of some guy. Should I go anyway? Will I look stupid if I sit by myself, especially since it's in a small room? I know for sure that no one I know will want to come with me!!! Is it dumb for me to go to something that doesn't interest me in the least just because I'm hoping a guy I like will be there? I know he'll talk to me if he is there, though...that's IF he's even there!
I only have a month left of college until summer break, so something has to happen soon or it might never happen. And don't suggest that I ask him to do something with me; there's no way in HELL! Besides, juding from his actions so far, he seems much bolder than I am.
Anyway, we're in the same club together but don't really talk during meetings because he sits by his frat brothers. After class today, he said I should come to some of the stuff the club is sponsoring, which I'm planning to do, if I can get someone to come with me. I don't want to go alone and look like I have no friends. Ugh, I hate how insecure guys make me feel sometimes! I mean, normally I wouldn't give a flying poodle about going to a lecture alone but now that my crush is in the picture and will probably go, too, I feel awkward. Especially because he's ALWAYS with someone else, usually a couple of his frat brothers. Do you know how intimidating it is for me, a huge nerd, to be talking to this perfect guy who's in a frat who's always surrounded by frat guys!!!!
Also, one of the lectures that's being offered sounds really boring and it's about something I already know plenty about. So going would be a huge waste of time. But then again, if he's there and we wind up talking, maybe it wouldn't be. However, I don't wanna turn into one of those pathetic girls that only do things because of some guy. Should I go anyway? Will I look stupid if I sit by myself, especially since it's in a small room? I know for sure that no one I know will want to come with me!!! Is it dumb for me to go to something that doesn't interest me in the least just because I'm hoping a guy I like will be there? I know he'll talk to me if he is there, though...that's IF he's even there!
I only have a month left of college until summer break, so something has to happen soon or it might never happen. And don't suggest that I ask him to do something with me; there's no way in HELL! Besides, juding from his actions so far, he seems much bolder than I am.