first day of school after a long brake

[Naptaq]

i remember when i was like ten years old, i started crying at the first day of school.. thoes ppl that i haven't seen in two months the teachers and the fact that i have to go to school every day (exept the weekends) it just scared me...well i actualy can't remember the first day of school without beein' on the edge and almosts crying.. every year i try to be more cool about it...well a lil it works but i still fell depresed on the first day..panicing like like my world is faling apart..
and another thing, when u learn for school i always thought that when i learned that it wasn't good enough and that i can do beter.. so latley i came with this stupid thing.... I do almost perfect or i don't do nothin' at all... and nothing keep's wining most of the time...
kinda stupid right? well i fell stupid writing this..
can anybody understand me...can anybody relate?
shit september 1-st is rapidly aproching....nooooooo
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[Twice-Shy]

That sounds a lot like me. I went to a hgih school and I always worked really hard. I came first in my class every year. One time, my form teacher added up the scores wrong, which meant that I came second. I was devastated and I went back down to school with my mother to get it fixed.

[glenn miller]

i am like u in a way to. when i went to school i dreaded it. like when i went on the bus to school i felt sick. just the thougfht of going.

[Naptaq]

thx for the notes everyone....and yah man i felt so sick and stuff u know..not felt of goin' at all...

[glenn miller]

yea i understand how u feel. that is the same way with me.

[LeLe]

Hi everybody.

This is my first time posting ;D.

I have been out of high school for a while now, but your post brought back the old feelings that I experienced every year going back to school. The first day is always the hardest day, but eventually you'll get over it. Don't think that you're the only kid who is having anxiety about going back to school.

[Naptaq]

hey ya'll i understand now. there are ppl that experience prety much the same as me... man i was too afrad to tell anyone so that ppl wouldn't think im loco or something...thank you shane, u bring hope. ur the captan here ur the Basta u know. lol.

[Laura K]

Yeah I've been like that since kindergarten...my dad had to pick me up and carry me onto the bus because I was crying so hard and didnt want to go. Also when I got to middle school I got really depressed because I had so much trouble talking to anyone that my mom called the guidance councelor who set me up with this girl having the same problem and she had us eat lunch together so we at least had someone. Now in high school I worry about having friends in my classes...

[SadSadSoul]

Soo young, so many possibilities. Thing I found depressing first days were if you ran into someone you had talked to in classes or something the year before and they totally ignore you. I know they ain't suppose to talk to your or anything but atleast a whats up or something. Bitches. How old and which grade are you in Naptaq?

[Naptaq]

yah SadSadSoul I agree. The first day ppl don't talk to ya at all, unless u have a friend among school mates. And ya it can be depresing but those are just ppl having some other more interesting ppl do talk to..nah interesting is maybe not the right word. umm open to talk to if u will. And they just have the stuff to talk bout. I mean what would i told them what i did over the summer? I'de say the magic word "nothing" and ended the conversation right there unles the person ur talkin to is persistent.. which can be anoying but it's great to be interested in isn't it?
Man life sucks sometimes, but hey take it or leave it.
So in the last 5 years or so I've been trying very hard to ignore those negative feelings bout school and just go for it u know. Sometimes it's best to do it and then think bout it lol. As crazy as it sounds it's true. And I'm getting better and better at it.