Not being able to be what I know I can be

[Jacobin]

Hi there people!

I hate it that when im interacting with some kind of people (intimidating or high status ppl) I blocked completely, and start to loose it: say, I feel the urge to make and maintain the conversation resulting in forcing the moment and saying all kinds of stupidities and silly nonsense stuff.

Im about to read Shyness: A Bold New Aproach by Carducci, will this help fix my situation?
What seems to be my problem in the first place?

[Jaws]

A lot of shy people have your problem; when speaking to people in power e.g. their boss, they find it hard to speak. With me it is different because for some reason I find it easier to talk to people who are above me. I

[CaryGrant]

I read that book! I thought it was great - you'll find helpful techniques for understanding and overcoming what you're dealing with.

Perhaps you don't feel you deserve to be around these "high status" people? That they're somehow better than you? You have to find a way to respect their status or intimidating personality, without believing that this in any way makes them superior or more worthy.

[glenn miller]

it is the same with me. i can talk to peopel tha tare shy like me easer.

[Jacobin]

I was doin some thinking and I guess my problem's root is that everytime I encounter with these kind of ppl I make a huge failure (in my acting or talking), and it has turn into a ritual kind of thing. Maybe its my programming (see those ppl, act in certain way), my self-sabotage, dont know. I havent read anything about Shyness but im almost certain that this is the big reason behind my acting or shyness.