Why do i even try?

[Outcast]

Sometimes i think, why do i even try? Yes, a long time acquaintance contacted me in yahoo messenger after a very long time of hiding(being invisible) to her. I didn't realize when i logged in today that i forgot to tag my invisibility on. No wonder she messaged me...
Anyways, i really don't like this girl coz she strikes me as one who's only there when she needs something from you.
But i'm trying to break my habit of judging people, so i decided to entertain her questions. She also asked if it's ok we meet when she returns from her trip(Sydney). Since again, i was trying to be nice and all, i agreed. After which, i tried to crack a joke and make some small talk. She didn't laugh at the joke but she did laugh at my attempt at some small talk. She said that i haven't changed at all and that my attempt at some small talk was a failure. I can only reply back..."yeah..that's me...haven't changed at all.."

Needless to say after that "encouragement", i told her that i needed to do some work to close the conversation.

Rant over i guess.

[Sweet Pea]

Feb 21, 2011 0:56:53 GMT -5 Outcast said:

Sometimes i think, why do i even try? Yes, a long time acquaintance contacted me in yahoo messenger after a very long time of hiding(being invisible) to her. I didn't realize when i logged in today that i forgot to tag my invisibility on. No wonder she messaged me...
Anyways, i really don't like this girl coz she strikes me as one who's only there when she needs something from you.
But i'm trying to break my habit of judging people, so i decided to entertain her questions. She also asked if it's ok we meet when she returns from her trip(Sydney). Since again, i was trying to be nice and all, i agreed. After which, i tried to crack a joke and make some small talk. She didn't laugh at the joke but she did laugh at my attempt at some small talk. She said that i haven't changed at all and that my attempt at some small talk was a failure. I can only reply back..."yeah..that's me...haven't changed at all.."

Needless to say after that "encouragement", i told her that i needed to do some work to close the conversation.

Rant over i guess.

awww...sorry that happened. sounds like you felt like she was mocking you. any chance it was one of those things where the typed word loses something in the translation?

[Outcast]

I dunno if i misread any of her words or anything. But it sure didn't felt like i was being complimented. She told me my questions(small talk) had pretty obvious answers. She told me i asked a lot of questions? She said she didn't know i was that nosy.
She and her sisters have made fun of me numerous times in the past but that doesn't stop them from seeking favors whenever they need it (till i hid from them or stopped replying). So i shouldn't have been surprised. Maybe should have even expected it.(sighs....pathetic i know i'm such a push over.)
Oh well, these things do happen when i dare to put myself out there. What else can i say? All i can do is try to learn from my mistakes. Maybe even learn to trust myself more?

[Sweet Pea]

Feb 21, 2011 4:46:16 GMT -5 Outcast said:

I dunno if i misread any of her words or anything. But it sure didn't felt like i was being complimented. She told me my questions(small talk) had pretty obvious answers. She told me i asked a lot of questions? She said she didn't know i was that nosy.
She and her sisters have made fun of me numerous times in the past but that doesn't stop them from seeking favors whenever they need it (till i hid from them or stopped replying). So i shouldn't have been surprised. Maybe should have even expected it.(sighs....pathetic i know i'm such a push over.)
Oh well, these things do happen when i dare to put myself out there. What else can i say? All i can do is try to learn from my mistakes. Maybe even learn to trust myself more?

well, for some people teasing is flirting. but for others it's just meanness. either way, if you don't like it, i'd certainly let her know. have you tried just telling her 'look, if you're going to act like this, i'd rather you didn't talk to me'? sometimes you just have to tell people how you feel i think.