I don't know if it is a good idea to create this thread but here goes. I feel completely lost at the moment. Well... For some time now. It feels like I just don't have my place in this world. I feel like I'm completely missing the "rules" to be happy, to be with others, to just live... The way I was raised lead me to avoid others. I just don't know how it works to be in relation with others. It isn't natural for me to be with others. I was also raised to follow my parents requests to the point of not knowing what I want for myself. I lack interest in what's around me. It's like I am not linked to this life.
My living doesn't make any sense to me.
Sorry. Must be annoying to read this as I'm sure you all have your own issues to deal with.
It's definitely not annoying. It's sadly a familiar feeling that a lot of us can probably relate to in various ways. I'm not sure what to say right now apart from try and find something positive to hold on to
I just hope it helps you to talk about it because we can be here for that
Thank you for the reply. It feels good to be 'seen' and 'listen to' in some way. Yes. I know. I have to find something positive. There are so many things I should do to get better but I lack the motivation to do so. It's like I just don't have the energy to move. I try from time to time but just don't find it.
I fear I have been taught not to live. I have been taught to avoid the unknown and to stay in a safe zone. The thing is I have to go out there again and again to try to learn it isn't how I have to be and learn new ways to deal with the outside world. But it takes so much efforts and time. I wonder if I will ever be happy to be alive. It is just so tiring.
I totally understand about the whole motivation thing. The only time I have any motivation is when I find something I enjoy doing. Even if it's something small I find having something to concentrate on completely changes my outlook on life. But of course getting to that point is hard.
Yeah the journey is really exhausting. I do think the safe zone doesn't always has to be bad. But I hope you can find some way of making things work for you