Nightmare at school

[aleaf]

hello, 

First of all, sorry for any bad english ...

So I just started school like a week ago and it was a full nightmare, it's a new school and i don't know anybody there but i was thinking "oh i'll find someone the first day that i can stay with during lunch time and all, it will be fine, OH OH HOW F*****G WRONG I WAS. A NIGHTMARE, IT WAS HELL THE WHOLE WEEK BECAUSE I WAS ALONE ALL THE TIME AND I DIDNT TALK TO ANYONE, people from my class tried to talk to me but i have no social skills and so i was probably looking really rude being like that. 

Now i'm asking myself what the f**k am i gonna do next week and for the whole year ? directly when i wake up in the morning i'm already thinking about how am i gonna deal with lunch time and people at school. Everthing is terrible, I am anxious all the time.

What do you think ? by the way i can't stop school i'm like 20 and still in college (thats how you call it ???or it's "high school" ?) and i need my diploma but i can't concentrate on work in this condition. 

actully i know you can't help me but i'm happy to have say all of this

sorry         

[ura]

Sept 9, 2016 15:12:09 GMT -5 aleaf said:

hello, 

First of all, sorry for any bad english ...

So I just started school like a week ago and it was a full nightmare, it's a new school and i don't know anybody there but i was thinking "oh i'll find someone the first day that i can stay with during lunch time and all, it will be fine, OH OH HOW F*****G WRONG I WAS. A NIGHTMARE, IT WAS HELL THE WHOLE WEEK BECAUSE I WAS ALONE ALL THE TIME AND I DIDNT TALK TO ANYONE, people from my class tried to talk to me but i have no social skills and so i was probably looking really rude being like that. 

Now i'm asking myself what the f**k am i gonna do next week and for the whole year ? directly when i wake up in the morning i'm already thinking about how am i gonna deal with lunch time and people at school. Everthing is terrible, I am anxious all the time.

What do you think ? by the way i can't stop school i'm like 20 and still in college (thats how you call it ???or it's "high school" ?) and i need my diploma but i can't concentrate on work in this condition. 

actully i know you can't help me but i'm happy to have say all of this

sorry         

Don't worry about being nervous when you start a new school, if everybody else just started also they will all be in the same position as you. Being nervous is natural, I think the whole ordeal may be overwhelming to you, I was quite nervous when I started university, I was 17 but people were quite friendly.

If you're in college or university there might be some societies or clubs you can join and you might make some friends there.

[aleaf]

I wanna make a little update on this (that no one will ever read but i just love to write on my life anyway.)

first of all, thank you ura ! (why in the heck did i never said thank you ?   ) I'm actually not in university. it's complicated (and everyone already knew each others in my class)

But i did make it the whole year !!! How ? well after two weeks of being alone all the time at school, alone for lunch, alone in class, talking to no one, being quiet and everything, someone approched me ! That person kindly asked if i wanted to stay with her group since she noticed i was always alone ? And turns out the rest of her group was actually 3 people of my class. I was happy, agreed to stay with them and i'm still with them now, after one year and an half (i think, i didnt count  ) and we are close friends.

i wrote a lot more than this but then deleted everything   who cares anyway. I ACTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS ? YEP.