Post by Ghost on Mar 1, 2004 4:50:22 GMT -5
Jarous said:
I don't know what I wanted to say: just cliques are awful but a big pain not to be in. A basic human weakness and wish to belong to something bigger than themselves, perhaps?I often had no need to belong, but on the other hand I have. It is pure that I want to be accepted the way I am. People do not have to think I am great, but just acceptance would be just fine. But i would not join clique's for that, because I would know that it is fake acceptance and all a charade.
At some point I stopped with certain friends, because they were getting way too typical, too clique where in I didn't felt good with. I made a few other friends, but that contact slowly died out too. One of those "friends" got other friends and hung out with them more and the other was only interested in own ego. There was another one, but that person was a bit of a loose cannon: fun, but to oversexed and busy with drugs. Now I think of it, I sure made a wide arrange of different friends..
After some time I spended my lunch always alone, which I found just fine, as long as others were not around, in case they would have pity on me and such. I didn't want their pity. So sometimes I would walk to the waterside and feed the ducks with a part of my lunch. I know, corny, but it wasn't like I liked eating (still don't). I was ok with it.