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Post by oky doky on Dec 1, 2003 5:15:20 GMT -5
Hi guys and galls. First post. I'm not looking forward to christmas. My mother killed herself five years ago. It was in May. I don't know why but I always feel it worse at this time of year. Christmas in my house is a very tough time. I had bottles of tablets ready to follow mom a couple of years ago. Has anybody anyadvice on how I can get through the next few weeks. Are you all looking forward to the holidays?
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Post by smartie on Dec 1, 2003 13:53:17 GMT -5
Hi ya oky...
sounds like you've had a tough time, and the untimely death in your family is a tragedy. I can't even begin to know how that must feel, so I wouldn't dare presume to say I can offer any valid support. What I can say is that I find Christmas difficult like many other people do, as it is a time when lonlieness and isolation is compounded many fold. I think we all tend to imagine that everyone else is enjoying the spirit of Christmas, but I doubt that many people are, as although it's a lovely idea, few people get the theory to work.
I do have experince of contemplating self harm, but again my circumstances were different to the ones that have preyed on your mind. All I can say is please consider things before you act rashly. I often find the World an ugly place. I came here looking for a bit of help, discussion (about lots of things, good and bad), and hopefully to share my experiences in order to both learn and educate. I am now starting to think that my quest is going to end in disappointment yet again. We have to keep going though, all of us, even though I don't want to today. Keep trying, you may have more luck here than I seem to be having.
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Post by moogle on Dec 1, 2003 21:41:57 GMT -5
I'm sorry about your loss.
Do you know why Christmas is so hard? Is it something to do with memories, seeing other families together, or just the season itself?
Do you live with family right now? Or have some that you can visit with for the holidays? Or friends?
I have contemplated suicide many times, but my life got much better, and I hate to think that I might have missed this. Try to think that the future holds better thngs.
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