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Post by Audio the obscure on Mar 6, 2016 13:21:43 GMT -5
Knowing that people have been worse off, instead of better off, as a result of our paths intersecting. Knowing that ultimately I have no future.
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Post by ura on Mar 10, 2016 21:43:26 GMT -5
It's depressing how much I can relate to what you write audioanalyst.
I've been analysing the way I think recently and I feel like my brain defaults to a very negative thought about people's actions towards me and how I act towards other people, I automatically assume the worst and it's known that people look for evidence to re-enforce their beliefs rather than view things objectively.
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Post by StarFall on Apr 20, 2016 21:33:09 GMT -5
I was already having a bad day at work but then you showed up and I tried to help you find the product you needed, even if it meant sending you to another store. I was nothing but helpful to you and you repaid my kindness by berating me for an offhand comment one of my coworkers made. A comment that wasn't even directly insulting to you.
Did it make you feel like a man to yell at the underpaid salesperson who was nothing but nice to you? Clearly you weren't brave enough to say it to my male coworker's face, so you know what? FUCK YOU!! FUCK YOU RIGHT IN YOUR SMUG LITTLE FACE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!
You didn't deserve my kindness, what you deserved was a swift kick in the junk.
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Post by StarFall on Jan 27, 2017 3:09:59 GMT -5
Dear ASSHOLE customer who was rude to me for just doing my job - GO FUCK YOURSELF!!
I bet you don't think I know who you are, or maybe you don't care. But I do know who you are and I do know what business you own and I will NEVER patron your business again. I will also make sure everyone that I know will know how rude you were and what an ASSHOLE you are.
If I hadn't been so handicapped by my shyness I would have taken your item and told you that you could go buy it somewhere else. It's my right to refuse service, especially to ASSHOLES like you. If you ever come into my work again, I will not help you and, frankly, I don't care if you take your business elsewhere. Then someone else can deal with your shit.
And just to reiterate - FUCK YOU!!
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Post by Audio the obscure on Dec 19, 2017 13:09:13 GMT -5
Ura I appreciate your having read my post; and I'm sorry to hear/read that you relate to what I have to say as I wouldn't wish how I feel on anyone. I'm going through a deep depression at the moment. I hope things are better for you now, Ura if you happen to be reading in here. I find myself that even if I make the attempt to view things objectively, it seems to me as if the worst still occurs in regard to my relating to people. They say "what goes around, comes around" or words to that effect; but I find even when I try to make amends to people I've hurt in the first place, it makes no difference: some people are not very forgiving toward me. It hurts, very much. I feel like giving up. My depressions have not been as often as they used to be; but they are more intense, more "lonely-depressions" I call them. I follow a lot of people on here but only a few have followed me back; that's depressing to me. If I follow somebody it is because I feel I have something in common with that person, or I can relate to them in some way; such as I follow one or two people because we like a certain tv show and that's the main reason. There is usually something I like about each person I follow; and I was hoping that some of the ones that haven't followed me yet would see something about me that could let them follow me back, but obviously that hasn't occurred. I've even tried to make amends to a few that I thought I offended (even though one of these has offended me - I tried to be gracious and endeavoured to overlook or forget that and attempt to make amends, but no dice - no matter how I try I cannot get through to this one particular person). I even thought that years ago (in my early days on forum) this person liked or at least tolerated me. But for the last 5 or 6 years I guess somehow that has changed. I'm tired of trying to reach out to this person. I don't know what he/she wants from me. I've been silent (or as "silent" as I can be). I've tried privately to make amends. I'm stuck. I don't know what else I can do. I may end up unfollowing the person. But I don't like to do this. It's not going to solve anything. Like I said, I've tried to make amends. I don't know what else to do. I am stymied. It's too bad we can't just talk on the telephone and "air things out". He/she could just say what needs saying. And I could say what needs saying. Obviously that "ain't gonna happen" - but not because I am not willing. I couldn't care less who has my phone number as long as nothing else happens other than we each having a private conversation together on it. Bottom line is this person has stopped liking or tolerating me and there is absolutely nothing I can do to change that because I've tried making amends to him/her and nothing positive has resulted from that. And I am TIRED OF TRYING. I just can't believe people could be so unforgiving when I don't even remember what I'd said wrong or offensive (this is in private, not on forum) in the first place.
And my Aunt is still treating me like a stranger. I write her every so often, several times a year. I send her a few dollars for my cousin who is mentally challenged because I love her. I've even invited the whole family to have dinner with me here in the apt. now that I have a proper space and facilities to cook meals and she continually ignores me. IT MAKES NO BLOODY SENSE WHY SHE'S CONTINUING TO TREAT ME THIS WAY!!! I COULD UNDERSTAND IT IF I WERE LIKE SOME RELATIVES THAT PEOPLE HEAR ABOUT ON TV SHOWS OR EVEN IN REAL LIFE! THAT IF I WERE A DRUG/ALCOHOL ADDICT, A GAMBLER, OR SOMEONE WHO JUST WENT OVER THERE ASKING TO BORROW MONEY OR BEING AN OVERALL NUISANCE - BUT I DON'T. ALL I DO IS WRITE THEM A LETTER OR CARD INVITING THEM OVER, ENCLOSING A LITTLE MONEY FOR MY COUSIN, AND TELLING THEM THEY'RE WELCOME TO HAVE SUPPER WITH ME! IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE!!!
There is more that I could say but what would be the point. It would sound ludicrous, so it would probably be in my best interest to refrain from saying it.
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Post by Outcast on Dec 26, 2017 0:13:17 GMT -5
Sorry to hear you're having a hard time lately Audio. Well, for what it's worth. I think you shouldn't beat yourself too much on what's happened. Like they say, it is almost impossible to please everyone. So i think you shouldn't take it personally or blame yourself if other people don't like you. As each of us is bound to have someone we don't particular like, there will be other people who would not particularly like us as well. Sometimes i find myself not liking someone, and i would sometimes feel guilty about treating him/her with some prejudice. I think i should respect/expect some other people might feel the same way towards me. If i have the right not to like someone, i guess others should have a right to do the same. Well, that's what i think sometimes. So bottom line is , we can't please everyone that comes into our lives and we shouldn't expect ourselves to do so. What's important is you tried to get along or be friends with them. If they don't want to, then let them be and just respect their decision. What's more important is how you treat yourself and see yourself. Like yourself for who you are, and be more forgiving to yourself.
Just my two cents that's all. Hope you feel better soon.
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Post by Audio the obscure on Jan 21, 2018 15:25:56 GMT -5
Stupid Google search engine frustrates me so much! I don't know to word things correctly on a GOOD day, let alone when I'm so deeply depressed. It doesn't understand what I want, and of course not since it's a search engine! I'm trying to get some encouragement to get me through the day since I'm feeling so utterly worthless and guilty because of no paid employment. I don't care about money except to have my needs met. I am trying to find something that might encourage me that I'm not as lazy as my guilt makes me feel. That if I do housework (which I do) that that means I'm not lazy, but the stupid thing keeps coming up with sites that address people's lazy husbands that won't do housework and similar laments, etc. etc. etc.
Ok Audio Toenails, this is the first day of the rest of your worthless damn life. Better get thine house in order for (whatever day it will happen) your next stop is Gehenna fire!!!
Well it IS the "Excuse This" thread! lol.
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Post by Sigh on Jun 23, 2022 14:45:33 GMT -5
How the fuck are you meant to go off sick when your job is hybrid and you can work from home?! I keep propping myself up in front of my work computer (at home cos I'm isolating with Covid) but I feel like shite and don't know how to actually go off sick (they are aware I'm ill).
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