Post by MrMakalakatoni on Feb 3, 2005 23:10:24 GMT -5
Now this is an interesting life. Why is it that complete jerks, guys who cheat on their girlfriends and guys who think nothing but sex get the girl? Why is this? Girls say they want a nice guy but speaking from experience they don't. I've tried for eight years to get a girlfriend, I'm 22. I don't make myself sound desperate, instead I am as calm as I possibly could be. I thought it was my weight problem. Wrong again, I lost 80 pounds and I look the best that I ever had in my life. Girls think of me as a "nice guy" and indeed I am and I am proud of it. I'm not looking for sex at all, I'm just looking for intimate companionship between two people of opposite sexes. But after 8 years of trying I'm pretty much getting ready to quit. There are better things in life to strive for. I no longer care about what girls think of me, I care about what I think of me. Yes it is true, "nice guys finish last", but you know what? There's also another saying; "The last shall be first." So bear that in mind.
For many years starting from the age of 14 I was always depressed and my mother passing away before I was planning on leaving for college didn't help matters either. As expected I didn't go for college (I was planning on becoming a minister) but rather stayed in the town and helped repair the family relationships that needed mending, helping my sister with her children (she is a single mother) and being there for my younger brother through his teenage years. Through these three years (after my mother passed away) I went through such an ordeal of mourning, having ups and downs and practically going through extreme isolation talking only with family and sometimes the odd family friend here and there.
Only until last year I decided to change, change for the better. Lost all the excess weight and gained courage to do things I never could've never conceived like taking a trip to New York City for example (more or less out-of-the-blue). But now I have to start taking care of myself. Don't get me wrong I love my family but I have to look out for me too and I'm important too, I'm 22 years old and many possibilities lay before me. So I moved out of my hometown and moved to the city to find a nice paying job so I can finally go to college, something I could've never seen myself doing. I still keep in contact with my family to make sure things are going alright. I'm still shy but now I get out more, if somebody invites me to a party, I go. If somebody sets me up with a date, I go. I'm always a bit hesitant at first but that's just the "old self" trying to come back again and I'm not going to have that happen ever again.
Now what's the point of this? I'm not exactly sure. Just need to get some stuff out on the open and I'd like to talk to people who've been through hardships and have overcome them or are currently overcoming them. But know this. Sure we're a lonely, pathetic and single bunch. I used to be depressed about not having a girlfriend but not anymore, maybe from time to time but very far and few between now. Hey, you can't have everything right? Some people have money, some don't, some have a car, others don't, some have relationships, other's don't. It's life. Now I'm striving for more worthy endevours. I want to improve myself even further and further. And I've taken up a unique hobby which makes me happy, collecting Elvis Presley memorabilia and anything Elvis related I guess.
Like what my mother said to me; "Don't let the world conquer you, you conquer the world." I've never forgotton that, especially since that was so out of character for her to say but she meant every word.
So anyway.
For many years starting from the age of 14 I was always depressed and my mother passing away before I was planning on leaving for college didn't help matters either. As expected I didn't go for college (I was planning on becoming a minister) but rather stayed in the town and helped repair the family relationships that needed mending, helping my sister with her children (she is a single mother) and being there for my younger brother through his teenage years. Through these three years (after my mother passed away) I went through such an ordeal of mourning, having ups and downs and practically going through extreme isolation talking only with family and sometimes the odd family friend here and there.
Only until last year I decided to change, change for the better. Lost all the excess weight and gained courage to do things I never could've never conceived like taking a trip to New York City for example (more or less out-of-the-blue). But now I have to start taking care of myself. Don't get me wrong I love my family but I have to look out for me too and I'm important too, I'm 22 years old and many possibilities lay before me. So I moved out of my hometown and moved to the city to find a nice paying job so I can finally go to college, something I could've never seen myself doing. I still keep in contact with my family to make sure things are going alright. I'm still shy but now I get out more, if somebody invites me to a party, I go. If somebody sets me up with a date, I go. I'm always a bit hesitant at first but that's just the "old self" trying to come back again and I'm not going to have that happen ever again.
Now what's the point of this? I'm not exactly sure. Just need to get some stuff out on the open and I'd like to talk to people who've been through hardships and have overcome them or are currently overcoming them. But know this. Sure we're a lonely, pathetic and single bunch. I used to be depressed about not having a girlfriend but not anymore, maybe from time to time but very far and few between now. Hey, you can't have everything right? Some people have money, some don't, some have a car, others don't, some have relationships, other's don't. It's life. Now I'm striving for more worthy endevours. I want to improve myself even further and further. And I've taken up a unique hobby which makes me happy, collecting Elvis Presley memorabilia and anything Elvis related I guess.
Like what my mother said to me; "Don't let the world conquer you, you conquer the world." I've never forgotton that, especially since that was so out of character for her to say but she meant every word.
So anyway.
