feeling shitty

[lily]

Hey, aeryn. I'm sorry things suck so bad for you right now. What's happening to you is what I call being 'in the system'. There may be some cases in which this is necessary for some people, but for many people it really isn't. I've always avoided being in the system at any cost. It may be hard to make it out in the world on my own, but the thing I have the lowest tolerance for of all is other people making decisions about my life. I want to make my own decisions. Other people don't know my situation well enough to make them for me. If you feel that way, even if you're not quite sure what to do right this minute, it may help to focus on getting out of the system and on your own two feet. If nothing else, you'll have your independence. To start with you could look for a job that you can handle with your present level of SA, something that minimizes required social contact. I don't know if this helps, but alot of us have been there and we know your frustration.

[saphron]

I don't have many friends either. I always been kinda unsocialble except when it comes to dancing and singing. For some reason or another I'm not afraid to do that in front of people.

Its really hard to find a job . First really thing you can go to businesses and start signing applications. Then after you sign the applications, you have to come every week to see if there is an opening. That part really scared me, I got really nervous because I wanted to make a nice impression plus I'm really I got freaking choke up about talking to people I didn't know.

I currently got a job at a video rental place. I don't how I got it really. I guess the manager saw that I really wanted the job because I had patience and I was a nice person.( The manager pretty cute by the way.lol) The manager told to be talkative, I'll guess just try to act like a giddy cheerleader as much as I can. I'll try my best.