Post by renzokuken on Jul 16, 2005 16:43:36 GMT -5
hi....im also shy.....but im glad to know im not the only one.....that im not alone.....i know this gonna be boring but that is bcause im sux at social skills....or writing essay...
about me....im 21 yrs old guy.....no gf....what a boring life...spend my free time playing video games.....
i dont know whats wrong with me....do i have mental sickness or disease?to much shy hormone in my brain or something......seem like i was born with this disease....still remember when i was a baby...my mom used to tell i like to cry a lot when being hug by a stranger....even when i was akid just beginning to know this world,im too afraid to talk or be with stranger,not many friend.....i guess i have born with it......i feel depress a lot when im teenager.....too worried about my future,realised im diff,no gf because i cant handle girls....disadvantage in many ways compared to other people.....worried bcause im getting older,my social skill are too sux....always cant think of a word to speak my mind....even when im talking,whats really in my brain is what does this guy think?i hope i dont embarassed myself, feeling nervous overcome.....short of oxygen...and i cant focus what to say next.....in the end,i look like a weirdo......i cant stop remembering the look on their faces.....
actually sometimes i feel better,not too serious....that is when my self esteem is high....but most of the time,it is down......
i feel too nervous during public speaking in class....most of time im embaressed myself,and feeling depress...
talk about friends....a little,thats because they sit next to me in class..... i feel nervous talikng with stranger....with my poor speaking skills.....i would just embarssing my self...
ill try avoid it most of the time....running away....and depress....even to walk next to road with car passes by is not easy.....i start to imagine the driver staring at me. eventhough i looked down most of the time when walking....sometime my leg cramp or start shaking when the feeling strike me......thinking about it now does seem alittle funny,cramping my leg while walking in the middle of the road for no good reason......
when i used to do it,its ok alittle....my brain feel alittle relax,bcause realise there nothing to be afraid about....but when stayed at home for three days playing games during holidays and start walk out again...the feeling rush to my head again....theres no ending to this.....
to make thing worst...for me.....to be honest.....im good looking guy,eventhough i try hard not to draw people attention.....wear nerdy spec,keep my moustache,cut short hair....simple clothing.....
but i try not to be too obvious.....if i wear like a clown,or make myself look too ugly....it can draw people attention too....
when i started going out.....guy staring at me for who know reason,girls smiling.....but...goddam,if only i have the gut to smile back at them.....im afraid even to make eye contact for too long.....good looks and shy is bad combination.....im sure u all know howdoes it feel to be stared by people....
i dont have any gf until now,never.....because im too shy with girls....especially the good looking one....i cant open my mouth while theyre eyes looking,my mouth just numb.....even if i can speak normally,my social skill are too sux......i cant figured the right word to say......said a word while my brain think otherwise...
ill just embarassed myself in the end,my worst fear as shy guy is to embarassed myself to people i like...the feeling is too unbeareable.....
too afraid bout her reaction when she realised im sux at that,what a damn boring guy,what a freak.....how am i gonna be able to talk with her in public places,in cinema,in restaurant when were dating together....i feel more comfortable being a loner....even if i want it badly,i cant handle it....
ok....just wanna share my boring life a bit....i may exaggerating a bit...like i said earlier im sux at words....
about me....im 21 yrs old guy.....no gf....what a boring life...spend my free time playing video games.....
i dont know whats wrong with me....do i have mental sickness or disease?to much shy hormone in my brain or something......seem like i was born with this disease....still remember when i was a baby...my mom used to tell i like to cry a lot when being hug by a stranger....even when i was akid just beginning to know this world,im too afraid to talk or be with stranger,not many friend.....i guess i have born with it......i feel depress a lot when im teenager.....too worried about my future,realised im diff,no gf because i cant handle girls....disadvantage in many ways compared to other people.....worried bcause im getting older,my social skill are too sux....always cant think of a word to speak my mind....even when im talking,whats really in my brain is what does this guy think?i hope i dont embarassed myself, feeling nervous overcome.....short of oxygen...and i cant focus what to say next.....in the end,i look like a weirdo......i cant stop remembering the look on their faces.....
actually sometimes i feel better,not too serious....that is when my self esteem is high....but most of the time,it is down......
i feel too nervous during public speaking in class....most of time im embaressed myself,and feeling depress...
talk about friends....a little,thats because they sit next to me in class..... i feel nervous talikng with stranger....with my poor speaking skills.....i would just embarssing my self...
ill try avoid it most of the time....running away....and depress....even to walk next to road with car passes by is not easy.....i start to imagine the driver staring at me. eventhough i looked down most of the time when walking....sometime my leg cramp or start shaking when the feeling strike me......thinking about it now does seem alittle funny,cramping my leg while walking in the middle of the road for no good reason......
when i used to do it,its ok alittle....my brain feel alittle relax,bcause realise there nothing to be afraid about....but when stayed at home for three days playing games during holidays and start walk out again...the feeling rush to my head again....theres no ending to this.....
to make thing worst...for me.....to be honest.....im good looking guy,eventhough i try hard not to draw people attention.....wear nerdy spec,keep my moustache,cut short hair....simple clothing.....
but i try not to be too obvious.....if i wear like a clown,or make myself look too ugly....it can draw people attention too....
when i started going out.....guy staring at me for who know reason,girls smiling.....but...goddam,if only i have the gut to smile back at them.....im afraid even to make eye contact for too long.....good looks and shy is bad combination.....im sure u all know howdoes it feel to be stared by people....
i dont have any gf until now,never.....because im too shy with girls....especially the good looking one....i cant open my mouth while theyre eyes looking,my mouth just numb.....even if i can speak normally,my social skill are too sux......i cant figured the right word to say......said a word while my brain think otherwise...
ill just embarassed myself in the end,my worst fear as shy guy is to embarassed myself to people i like...the feeling is too unbeareable.....
too afraid bout her reaction when she realised im sux at that,what a damn boring guy,what a freak.....how am i gonna be able to talk with her in public places,in cinema,in restaurant when were dating together....i feel more comfortable being a loner....even if i want it badly,i cant handle it....
ok....just wanna share my boring life a bit....i may exaggerating a bit...like i said earlier im sux at words....