Post by latinking on Dec 15, 2006 15:27:40 GMT -5
Well im new here, jus joined like a few days ago..so happened i found this site on google..
well anyways since this is the diary section ima type abit bout my life n how i came to be that "shy" guy...
well i waas born in nicaragua in 84 back in the contra war era so we had to flee, me and my family arrived in miami wit my brother in 86..but since we heard Canada was giving refugee status for us, we decided to move up here in 89..anyways it was hard to settle down cuz of english, and when i went to skool i hardly had any friends cuz of the language and because the way i looked.. poor kid coming from the states i didnt get much acceptance not even from the teachers, i believe some of em were racist or indifferent.. but anywho these kids would make fun of me, sometimes jump me and beat me up, steal my things..i was spat in my face once by a girl older then me.. well into grade 7, 8 i was stil a loner, people would hate me out of nothing...once i was jumped in the hallway by like 5 kids, until i couldnt take it no more, i got really depressed, i started skipping school, getting into trouble, getting in fights with other sudents...i got into highschool and it got worse..i need to see a psyciatrist because of my depression and because i wanted to kill myself.. i felt like the last thinig in the world, i couldnt even get a girl because i had a mean look on my face, i was never happy.. i did make on freind, he was kool asian dude from the suburbs..he was going through the same thing i was and we cliked like brothers...one day we planned to really hurt someone, we fixed out target on one guy who bothered us alot.. i even brought a knife to skool to be ready to catch the kid alone..but it never happened because he was always with his "group"..finally i jus threatened him, i found out his number and disquised my voice and told him i would come to his house and kill him and his family, it was crazy...i was losing my mind..i dont know how but the cops found out about me. at skool i got in trouble and i got expelled..it was wierd though because the kid i threatened layed off the charges so i didnt get in trouble with the law... finally at age 16, i dropped out of high skool..this time i did start getting in troublewith the law, got arrested few times,got into fights, and i didnt know where i was going in life... since then i havent been able to graduate..i detest skool, even if i look at a skool i get chills, or i hate it wit all my heart..deep down inside i would like to go back, but i jus have too many bad memories of unnaccptance and hatred that holds me down, i am 22 live with my parents and am on and off at jobs..i get depressed sometimes but nowits jus normal to me.. well i guess what im saying is that im stuck, im infront of a wall and im trying to bust through it....
thats my story..peace
well anyways since this is the diary section ima type abit bout my life n how i came to be that "shy" guy...
well i waas born in nicaragua in 84 back in the contra war era so we had to flee, me and my family arrived in miami wit my brother in 86..but since we heard Canada was giving refugee status for us, we decided to move up here in 89..anyways it was hard to settle down cuz of english, and when i went to skool i hardly had any friends cuz of the language and because the way i looked.. poor kid coming from the states i didnt get much acceptance not even from the teachers, i believe some of em were racist or indifferent.. but anywho these kids would make fun of me, sometimes jump me and beat me up, steal my things..i was spat in my face once by a girl older then me.. well into grade 7, 8 i was stil a loner, people would hate me out of nothing...once i was jumped in the hallway by like 5 kids, until i couldnt take it no more, i got really depressed, i started skipping school, getting into trouble, getting in fights with other sudents...i got into highschool and it got worse..i need to see a psyciatrist because of my depression and because i wanted to kill myself.. i felt like the last thinig in the world, i couldnt even get a girl because i had a mean look on my face, i was never happy.. i did make on freind, he was kool asian dude from the suburbs..he was going through the same thing i was and we cliked like brothers...one day we planned to really hurt someone, we fixed out target on one guy who bothered us alot.. i even brought a knife to skool to be ready to catch the kid alone..but it never happened because he was always with his "group"..finally i jus threatened him, i found out his number and disquised my voice and told him i would come to his house and kill him and his family, it was crazy...i was losing my mind..i dont know how but the cops found out about me. at skool i got in trouble and i got expelled..it was wierd though because the kid i threatened layed off the charges so i didnt get in trouble with the law... finally at age 16, i dropped out of high skool..this time i did start getting in troublewith the law, got arrested few times,got into fights, and i didnt know where i was going in life... since then i havent been able to graduate..i detest skool, even if i look at a skool i get chills, or i hate it wit all my heart..deep down inside i would like to go back, but i jus have too many bad memories of unnaccptance and hatred that holds me down, i am 22 live with my parents and am on and off at jobs..i get depressed sometimes but nowits jus normal to me.. well i guess what im saying is that im stuck, im infront of a wall and im trying to bust through it....
thats my story..peace
