bowling

[mugatea]

Hey guys,

I have this disorder called trichotillomania. Anywayz, its an anxiety disorder i guess and today there was a small meeting for trichsters in Glasgow.

We went bowling and I'm the shyest one by far. I mean chronic shyness. I just sat there for the whole time and couldnt talk to anyone, while everyone talked to each other. I was just so bad today, I really regretted going. I mean whats the point if you add nothing to the occasion and nothing would be lessened if you just disapear.

I feel just so self consious and I cant do anything about it. What I hate is when someone does something or says something that puts the whole groups attention on to you!! God how bad is that. You feel so exposed and vurnerable.

I'm just back and I just wish I kept my money and bought food or something with it.

Everything seems a bit crap at the mo, I just cant talk to people. I guess my greatest fear is rejection and when I talk to people I speak politely and as remotely as possible. I refuse to open up and let them see who I am, cause of the rejection issue. I mean its come to the stage now where I cant laugh anymore while other peeps are with me.

Grrrr, I'm in a downer!

jamie
x

[spitzig]

Well, this was the first you'd been to, but not the first the others had been to? If so, more than likely, some of them were in the same situation a few meetings before you.

[Twice-Shy]

I agree with Spitzig. It will take a few more meetings before you settle down. I started going to Huntington's Disease Support Group meetings about 6 months ago. For the first 3 or 4 meetings I was a mess and, like you, didn't enjoy it. I didn't know anybody else. Now, a few moths on I really love it. I found that I have so much in common with the others. I'm sure you'll find out the same. Stick at it.

[NewOrleansLady]

I agree, you just have to stick with it. Your not going to make any progress sitting at home. It sounds to me, that this would be the perfect group of people for you to bond with. I wish that there were social groups for shy people where I live.