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Post by deadendphilosopher on Jun 4, 2008 23:04:48 GMT -5
I just want to blend into the wall, and as a result I won't let myself experience emotion because I might get carried away. That reminds me of a story in one of Elisabeth Kübler-Ross' books. A woman was afraid to cry, because she thought if she cried she could never stop. Then something trigered the crying and of course she was wrong, because she stopped crying, eventually. If I remember correctly it took a few 'crying sessions'. You can do it D! I have heard that story too - I think I may have that fear to some extent, but I think the main thing that scares me is that I won't be able or aware enough to control what I do. The thought of complete strangers seeing my emotions also makes me shut down emotionally when I'm there. But you're right, I can do it. Thanks for pointing that out  |
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Post by deadendphilosopher on Jun 4, 2008 23:20:18 GMT -5
Go for it! Wish they had something like this where I am. Don't worry about getting carried away, just let it flow. It helps to get carried away sometimes, it takes off the pressure.  Thanks for the insight, you're right, getting carried away does take off the pressure when you're in the situation. However sometimes I feel terrible when I realize I've been carried away. I need to learn to move beyond that horrible feeling of having exposed too much. If I do get up and go through the shadow process I am really afraid I'll suddenly panic and freeze up and won't be able to go through with it. I can barely speak during when we check in and out with each other, and I have not had the courage to act out a role for someone even though I was asked. The thought of standing up in front of everyone and telling them my intimate insecurities and fears is terrifying! That's probably why it would be so good to do. Are you sure there is nothing like that where you are? A lot of people are certified in shadow work and it might not be advertised very boldly. If not, there are weekend seminars that are held probably in different places around the country. Here is a link to the shadow work website: www.shadowwork.com/ |
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Post by deadendphilosopher on Jun 5, 2008 22:19:46 GMT -5
I just had my 3rd night of shadow work. I didn't volunteer to go through a process because I was too scared and it just didn't feel like the right time, though that might be an excuse. However I'm really glad I didn't go - the guy that went had some things stirred up by the last session and he seemed really transformed by the work he did tonight. He was practically bubbling with happiness afterward - it felt like it was meant to be his night. He actually processed a social anxiety issue, which really surprised me because he didn't strike me as shy. It resignated with me a lot, and I began to open myself up to experiencing some of the emotion I was suppressing. I allowed myself to cry a tiny bit and I began to feel more like I was present in the moment. I have a lot more faith in the shadow work process now after having witnessed his process, and I think I will try to do my own process next week. It will be easier now that he has kind of paved the way for processing social anxiety issues.
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Post by Naptaq on Jun 5, 2008 23:31:03 GMT -5
Mazal Tov! Good work |
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Post by deadendphilosopher on Jun 6, 2008 18:13:48 GMT -5
Mazal Tov! Good work Thanks |
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Post by Sweet Pea on Jun 6, 2008 18:31:07 GMT -5
interesting to know he found it helpful for social anxiety. thanks for sharing. |
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Post by deadendphilosopher on Jun 15, 2008 2:49:21 GMT -5
I just had another shadow work session, and I think I feel something really shifting in me. I finally had the courage to volunteer to work on an issue, but for the first time there was competition as to who would get to go so I let someone else go, but I am ready for the next session. I'm not sure if this shift is from the shadow work alone, but I think I have discovered a useful technique. I will write about it in detail later.
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