I've had the worst day

[Sweet Pea]

Apr 29, 2009 21:56:11 GMT -5 @kuroihana said:

Well. In my life, I have been in one serious relationship. That person meant everything to me. They were everything I have always wanted. We dated for 3 years and they were my best friend. I don't think I could have had it any better. We broke up for my fault.. It was all my fault. And then I tried talking to that person a while after we broke up. They changed, they were a totally different person. Now after almost a year of not talking to that person, I had worked up the courage to finally talk to them again. Ofcourse, all this time I've still had feelings for them. I only want what's best for them, but I wondered if maybe that person was lonely now too. No. I was completely wrong. When we were together, that person only had me and I only had them. Now. That person is popular and has all the people they want. I'm not needed. Right after I worked up the courage to finally... I went to that person's website to try to talk with them, and to see that they called me a "Stalker". I really feel like killing myself. That person was the only one I had, they were everything to me. I felt like maybe one day I could fix it and get them back. I would do anything.. but I know now.. I know there is no one else. I just know. I don't know what to do, I don't want to live my life by myself and be hated.

I wish I had someone.. Anyone...

why do you think you are being called a stalker?

[Sweet Pea]

Apr 29, 2009 23:03:48 GMT -5 @kuroihana said:

I think this is because whenever I try to get in contact with that person again I'll try to phone them or talk to them online, therefore they think I'm stalking them when I'm just trying to get in contact with them.

well, i don't see why an upfront contact from someone you're intimate with already would ever be considered stalkerish. to me a stalker usually someone you don't really know well who is following you and watching you and being nosy about your personal life, especially if they mean to do you harm in some way...like if someone like your supervisor at work uses subterfuge to stalk you online and to eavesdrop on your private conversations outside of work. the only exception i can think of is when a romantic relationship ends and one party won't accept it and keeps trying to re-initiate the romantic relationship in spite of their ex asking them to stop. has this person asked you to stop all contact?

[Sweet Pea]

Apr 30, 2009 9:24:55 GMT -5 @kuroihana said:

I'm sure it's because she hates me. If I knew she called me a stalker, ofcourse I wouldn't try to get in contact with her cause I'd knew she hated me. But now that I know, I'm not going to contact her since she doesn't want it. But that isn't the point... It just hurts.

yeah, that word does get used jokingly alot nowadays, but if you think she's serious it's best to leave her alone. i'm sorry you're hurting though. just turn your thoughts to other things and it will get less painful with time.