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Diary
Dec 5, 2014 14:51:09 GMT -5
Post by silence on Dec 5, 2014 14:51:09 GMT -5
What would you like your hair to look like? I wonder what "amazing hair" would be. ^^ I LITERALLY HAVE NO IDEA HAHA I THINK I'M JUST TRYING TO FIND EXCUSES AS TO WHY I'M NOT TOTALLY HAPPY WITH MYSELF AND HAIR IS AN EASY TARGET. SO TONIGHT I'VE BEEN TO OUR OFFICE CHRISTMAS PARTY. ALL THINGS CONSIDERED IT WENT REALLY WELL. I THINK I SOCIALISED WELL I MADE CONVERSATIONS WITH PEOPLE. I ONLY HAD ONE AWKWARD MOMENT WHEN I WENT TO THE TOILET AND THERE WERE SOME OF THE MORE POPULAR PRETTY GIRLS DOING THEIR MAKE-UP AT THE SINK AND I DIDN'T WANT TO INTERACT WITH THEM SO I JUST WAITED UNTIL THEY LEFT. I ALSO EAT AND DRANK A LOT. PROBABLY THE MOST I'VE EVER DRANK FOR A LONG TIME ABOUT 4 GLASSES OF WINE AND A COCKTAIL AND I FEEL SURPRISINGLY GOOD. NORMALLY AFTER 3 GLASSES OF WINE I'M ABOUT TO THROW UP BUT THIS TIME I HELD IT WELL AND COULD POSSIBLY HAVE DRUNK SOME MORE. I'M GLAD I LEFT WHEN I DID AS I'M SURE THINGS WERE GOING TO GET A BIT CRAZY LATER. BUT I WAS ALMOST IN THE MOOD TO DANCE TROUBLE IS WE WERE IN A TRENDY BAR, BUT I DID JOIN IN WITH PEOPLE AND SHOWED OFF MY AMAZING DANCE SKILLS TO TRAGEDY BY STEPS, I STILL REMEMBER THE MOVES... HOPEFULLY I GAVE A GOOD IMPRESSION TO MY COLLEAGUES AND THEY THINK I'M A BIT LESS AWKWARD NOW. |
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Diary
Dec 7, 2014 2:03:19 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Dec 7, 2014 2:03:19 GMT -5
That is nice to read. ^^
It seems you had a pretty good experience and I hope you can build something from it.
Congrats on the dance. I would have never dare to (I can't dance ^^').
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Diary
Dec 20, 2014 16:50:44 GMT -5
Post by silence on Dec 20, 2014 16:50:44 GMT -5
That is nice to read. ^^ It seems you had a pretty good experience and I hope you can build something from it. Congrats on the dance. I would have never dare to (I can't dance ^^'). I hope so to. Thanks for the comment! In better news I'm now off work for the next two weeks. I'm hoping to be productive. I'll make a list of what I want to do and post it here when I can. and I'll start writing those dreaded new years resolutions... |
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Diary
Dec 23, 2014 14:59:22 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Dec 23, 2014 14:59:22 GMT -5
My pleasure.
Out of curiosity, do you have a lot to do during holidays?
For my part, I just intend to do...nothing. Ahah.
Happy holidays btw and to every one else too. ^^
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Diary
Dec 24, 2014 16:42:06 GMT -5
Post by silence on Dec 24, 2014 16:42:06 GMT -5
My pleasure. Out of curiosity, do you have a lot to do during holidays? For my part, I just intend to do...nothing. Ahah. Happy holidays btw and to every one else too. ^^ Well other than the usual family stuff not really. I have good intentions but I will probably end up doing nothing like I have done today... I do hope you enjoy your intended nothingness though that sounds relaxing My main goal will be to be happy and enjoy myself. My moods have been so up and down lately it's unpredictable and annoying Happy Holidays  |
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Diary
Dec 25, 2014 2:28:05 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Dec 25, 2014 2:28:05 GMT -5
Well even though it's lonely my intented nothingness is kind of relaxing being away from people, the noise, the work,... ^^
I hope you can get some of it done and may you reach your main goal!
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Diary
Dec 26, 2014 13:44:47 GMT -5
Post by silence on Dec 26, 2014 13:44:47 GMT -5
Well even though it's lonely my intented nothingness is kind of relaxing being away from people, the noise, the work,... ^^ I hope you can get some of it done and may you reach your main goal! It's always ok to take some time out! My issue is I have more of those days than busy ones :/ I'm almost tempted to do something crazy and join a gym  I feel like it's something I should have a go at once in my life and I have a Birthday soon so I might ask for some money towards it. Not to mention I have apparently gone into the overweight side of healthy... I've been dedicated enough to go to a pilates class over week for a while so I feel this is the next step. Might get me out of the house a bit too. Maybe even meet people. |
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Diary
Dec 26, 2014 16:45:26 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Dec 26, 2014 16:45:26 GMT -5
Well. It's an issue for me too. Except for work I rarely go out or do anything.
It might be a good idea to join a gym if you find the energy to keep going.
I think that to feel good in one's body helps to feel good in the head. So I thought about going to one too but never found the courage. I hope you find it and get to like it. ^^
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Diary
Dec 31, 2014 14:39:19 GMT -5
Post by silence on Dec 31, 2014 14:39:19 GMT -5
Well so far I have done nothing and feel awful. I didn't have the energy to get out of bed until gone 12 I do have a few days left though so I'll see if I can turn it around So I had a look at some of my old posts and had a look at the evolution of my New Years Revolutions from the start of 2012 and 2014. 1. Do some exercise! I've always been skinny naturally but I've never been healthy. I think the reason I weight as little as I do is because I have no muscle, which is a problem as I have no strength/stamina. The weight I have goes to my stomach and face. Unfortunately as I have a big head anyway, got a bit of a bit of a bobble headed thing going on. I think it would make a look older as well with a less chubby face. I would love a flat stomach and some cheekbones haha. I think my goals are tone up, gain muscle and become more flexible. I plan on doing lifts, sit ups, the kind of things I don't need to leave the house for :-) I am limited by space and lack of money so I'll improvise with household objects. Running and such is not possible as my left leg is messed up. I do plan on doing research into the best ways to do this. Around 10 years ago I started doing arm lifts (with a textbook!) and about 40 sit ups a day, it was great I was able to touch my toes for the first time. So if I had the motivation back then I can do it again now! 2. Become more active online. Because if I can't be confident on the internet. I have no hope doing it irl. 3. Job. But I don't really want to talk about that. 4. Start playing the keyboard again. Starting with relearning how to read music. 5. Add more things to this list. I've run out of steam right now. ah the same old Exercise/eat better Meet people Try to find meaning in life Spend my time wisely/stop being so lazy Save money Be happier/more comfortable within myself Do well in work Yeah not going too well and they will be exactly the same this year |
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Diary
Feb 1, 2015 12:47:09 GMT -5
Post by silence on Feb 1, 2015 12:47:09 GMT -5
ugh so my work contract is up at the end of March and they announced some new jobs coming up so once again I've had to apply to stay. There are about 12 of us on contracts and 7 jobs. I'm not sure what my chances are I'm probably near the bottom in terms of performance. I've sent in my application last night so I'll wait and see. I can just feel my anxiety rising. I hope I'll get an interview but then I don't want the stress of it.
oh and I had a birthday last weekend I feel like I'll never be able to tell people my age without someone laughing at me...
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Diary
Feb 1, 2015 14:30:06 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Feb 1, 2015 14:30:06 GMT -5
A bit late but Happy birthday! What is it about your age that make them laugh? And crossed fingers for your application! |
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Diary
Feb 1, 2015 14:55:42 GMT -5
Post by marle on Feb 1, 2015 14:55:42 GMT -5
Happy birthday, silence! Good luck on the job application. |
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Diary
Feb 1, 2015 15:07:41 GMT -5
Post by silence on Feb 1, 2015 15:07:41 GMT -5
A bit late but Happy birthday! What is it about your age that make them laugh? And crossed fingers for your application! Thanks! haha it was my 30th no one will ever believe me. They won't take me seriously  Happy birthday, silence! Good luck on the job application. Thank you! |
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Diary
Feb 1, 2015 15:42:53 GMT -5
Post by puppet on Feb 1, 2015 15:42:53 GMT -5
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Feb 1, 2015 16:07:37 GMT -5
Post by StarFall on Feb 1, 2015 16:07:37 GMT -5
Happy Birthday Silence! I hope that things go alright with the job app!
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I feel like it's something I should have a go at once in my life and I have a Birthday soon so I might ask for some money towards it. Not to mention I have apparently gone into the overweight side of healthy... 
