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Post by madiocre on Jan 6, 2009 21:25:15 GMT -5
i would rather he was australian and interested lol ...he seemed the perfect balance of nice and funand we had alot in common but i just have tyo mmove on i guess.
there is another guy i met who is interested....im not sure if i m though i guess time will tell
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Post by rukryM on Jan 7, 2009 5:40:33 GMT -5
Give it time and see what happens. Rushing things like these prevents you from getting to know the other and can have serious consequences further on if you establish a relationship^^.
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Post by madiocre on Mar 25, 2009 1:55:01 GMT -5
hehhee just read thorugh all of this thread..... i find it funny .
Well i gave " the other guy " who was interested time and it turn out he is awesome and we are awesome together i feel really happy with him its like all of what i just read kinda had a purpose i needed the pain to appreciate this beauty i guess .
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Post by rukryM on Mar 26, 2009 10:34:40 GMT -5
Nice. Though I've forgotten who this "other guy" was.
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Post by Sweet Pea on Mar 26, 2009 23:30:59 GMT -5
hehhee just read thorugh all of this thread..... i find it funny . Well i gave " the other guy " who was interested time and it turn out he is awesome and we are awesome together i feel really happy with him its like all of what i just read kinda had a purpose i needed the pain to appreciate this beauty i guess . good for you!  |
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Post by madiocre on Apr 7, 2009 5:25:11 GMT -5
Nice. Though I've forgotten who this "other guy" was. Umm i couldf be biased but basically he is a really genunine guy where we all have the problems with being shy he is a little different in that he says exactly what he thinks and i really like that bolness . heres hoping itll rub off . lol |
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Post by madiocre on Apr 7, 2009 5:25:29 GMT -5
hehhee just read thorugh all of this thread..... i find it funny . Well i gave " the other guy " who was interested time and it turn out he is awesome and we are awesome together i feel really happy with him its like all of what i just read kinda had a purpose i needed the pain to appreciate this beauty i guess . good for you! Thank you |
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Post by madiocre on Apr 7, 2009 5:31:56 GMT -5
umm a little annoyed at the momet rahhh i have decided to do a baday i never really do but sice i was forced to do one last year i figured i might d something this year so i stated a small thing on facebook planning to go iceskating then eating then dancing ...... but turns out someone is holding a suprise 21st for a person i went to school with (the only one i have ever laeled a bully ) and now im really anxious because of the few ppl i have invited most are from school and i think theyll go to that and i feel like i shouldnt have it the same night but why shoukld i have to change i dont like sunday parties and i work saturday mornings saturday night is the only real time i have . and im annoyed that considering that the girl planning it has a bf with the exact same bday as me so she should have realised that i might be doing something ... bahumbug!!!
but then really im kinda happy that i have 2 peole who have replied saying yes already and 3 maybes (i dunno about other places but in australia ppl tend to be slack with the whole rsvping and always say maybe judt in case ) i mean one of those people is even a school friend .
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Post by madiocre on May 10, 2009 7:16:46 GMT -5
i feel depressed i have no actual reasons i think its a chemical thing it being that time of the month and me being tired and also having the flu . waa waa waa i'm such a sook and i just want too vent abou tmy nothingness i have to vent about. its so lame i know there is nothin gparticular to feel pissed or paranoid about so i so i just reflect on stuff thats happened cos it ferels comfortable and the i just get all upset over nothing raaah . las night was such an awkward thing . i have an excellent b/f but i was soo tired so i started getting all jealous as we walked through the city seeing alll the girls all clad in tiny clothes on a very cold night even though i felt so nice and warm i took my bulky jumpers off its soo lame . then i felt so ashamed and i dwelled on it and eventually got very emotional and stated crying for no reason when i got home in a very unoportune moment and when my bf was tired and about to fall asleep i got even more upset which was really unfair arrrrh why m i such a f@!#wit !!!!!
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Post by madiocre on May 26, 2009 4:52:40 GMT -5
warning i am very tired my point will be missed and i am sure to stray from topic
sometimes living at home is a bit difficult.
Mu mum dosnt like my friend jane . even though she dosnt know her she claim to Really hate that bitch. slut . slope head etc etc. She thinks she is a slut and a drug taker when she isnt. any way i saw her on sunday it is now tuesday . moday i had a supervisor visit at my workplacement to get my final marks so sunday i had just 4 hrs sleep last night was adequate however the way my body work is i tend to go loopy after missing sleep them getting normal sleep . I was wiping up the dishes and singing and being loud so she chucked a tantrum and turned off her tv. i m pretty loopy so i laughed tehn as i was told to go get on the pc and shut up i was stil laughing as i walked away so she said something like oh it must be the drug from sunday i know she's a drug taker. she said it when i was at the other end of the house so as was walking in i sarcastically said to myself " oh thats right i forgot jane a junkie and so m i . so she yelled that i now have a month to get out. arhhh its sooo frustrating she alway sodes this i was with friends a whole 2days ago and we had a tea party we drunk TEA. sure we had funny flavours like "strawberry and cream " flavoured tea (its soo yummy btw) but there was no drugs . obviously its because i m doing the loopy no sleep thing. why is she so paranoid i think she is the one smoking dope cos she sure has that whole paranoia thing going. i even remember when i was 12 not even in high school i was with some cousins and we ate some pie when the adults werent around even though we already had dinner earlier on . she accused me of having smoked dope and that the only logical reason i would eat the pie after dinner was because i had the munchies even though i had always been a big eater ( something that is only just caught up to me now .... grrr i have gained a good 15 kilos in about 2 months i really need t get on that .)
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Post by madiocre on Jun 15, 2009 6:04:11 GMT -5
I don't know what to do i feel pretty stressed at the moment
i have spent all weeend working on an assessment that was due i was sick so oi eneded p getting a certificate but i feel like a cheater i should have been able to do it i even blew of the two shifts i had at work .
I feel bad also. i feel im getting too clingy to my boyfriend i think about him to muchand always get urges to contact him and i call him way too much and sometimes we dont have that much to talk about . i feel paranoid we are comming up to our 6 months and i think maybe its true whatthey say about love only lasting for 6 months. nd whatif it isnt love. .. i dont know im too tired i want to sleep but i have to keep working on stuff . i dont even know if everthrythig was due today or just the one bit . i dont know im tired i havnt been able to sleep .
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Post by madiocre on Sept 21, 2009 5:17:28 GMT -5
i feel like updating this...just because
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still with "the other guy" been 9 months almost. still very happy in that respect
trying to find a job because i am studying part time . it hard i have only had two interviews even though i have applied for like a milion places i get knocked back because i have no experience, only 3 days available and no actual qualifications yet. i am on a casual list but i think rubbed the director the wrong way . She didnt take my tax file number or any bank details on the day so i got all suspicous . she was busy and said she would ring i ended up ringing her at her home the next day (a worker gave me her number i thought that mant it was ok. ) she got antsy thn didnt rply for like 3 weeks and tried to blame me for not giving me the numbers like it was my fault..anyway she hasnt goven me any shifts since.
applied for uni today hopefully i'll get in so i can go straight through from tafe to uni instead of having a gap year. i'm nervous that i wont get accepted. but only time will tell.
my no string retail job has stopped giving me the few hrs they were giving me thats drag because now i have to really string out my money.
yep its all very boring atm.
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Post by madiocre on Jul 10, 2010 4:23:59 GMT -5
OK so another update.
so i did get into uni. i got a small amount of credit too...not much basically 3 subjects are exempt...hardly worth the 2 yrs to get the diploma but whatevs i guess im happy i got in. ive been working 4 days a week and doing 2 subjects. i one day. I was going through a rough patch at work though basically from when i started to when i quit abiut a month ago. I was placed as a room leaderfor a nursery ... the people were horrible and wouldn't listen to me and i didnt have the skills to make them. There was a lot of backstabbing ... about everything especially that htat had nothing to do with the job including fashion. I'm at a new job and am learning the ropes i feel very inept but the team are a lot more professional there is still bitchiness but hey i guess that is just human nature.
I'm still with the same guy its been a year and a half in fact we actually are living together. I moved out of home just a month ago. It's kinda lonely my bf is always out being a nerd so i stay at home alone... i really want to make friends with ppl but i just dont know how . I feel i have some fucking retardation that just make me lack any common sense or skills ot hold a conversation . I'ver spent the whole day crying for no reason other then i hate myself and i really should be thinking of how lucky i m and if im so fucking friendless i should just do something... i feel i lack an identity i used to say i draw and listen to music...i havnt drew or photographed anything for fun in so long and when i do i just feel that its so pitiful and im wasting my time. basically i hate my life but not because of life itself its because of ME, I'm lucky but i'm fucking retard !!!
and yeah basically ill stop my ranting there because who really need manifestations of my black holeness...
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Post by Robe on Jul 10, 2010 13:17:03 GMT -5
Hi, I'm sorry I haven't read much of this thread yet by I can relate to some of the things you said in your last post. I have trouble making friends and I spend a lot of time alone. I also am very lucky but I feel like I don't deserve it and it makes me feel guilty. Sometimes I feel like I lack an identity also. I used to draw but I haven't really drawn anything in years. Don't worry about ranting we don't mind. |
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Post by strawberrysweetie on Jul 10, 2010 16:15:34 GMT -5
Congrats on getting into uni. ... i really want to make friends with ppl but i just dont know how . I feel i have some fucking retardation that just make me lack any common sense or skills ot hold a conversation . I'ver spent the whole day crying for no reason other then i hate myself and i really should be thinking of how lucky i m and if im so fucking friendless i should just do something... i feel i lack an identity i used to say i draw and listen to music...i havnt drew or photographed anything for fun in so long and when i do i just feel that its so pitiful and im wasting my time. basically i hate my life but not because of life itself its because of ME, I'm lucky but i'm fucking retard !!! I can relate to this a lot...have had the same exact thought about myself so much lately. I often feel like an idiot because of the same things. It's lonely not having anyone to hang out with, but it can be so difficult to make some friends. I'm sorry you're feeling this way, too. *hug* |
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